Merry Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL!

May everyone have a blessed christmas and a wonderful new year with all their wishes coming true.

Tis the season to be jolly

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!

In just a few days you can hear everyone on the streets wishing each other a Merry Christmas!

So to get people into the holiday mood, here are some christmas treats for you.

1. Tomorrow, Christmas eve (sunday), there's going to be a carnival at little india. There's going to be floats. It would be outside Foochow Methodist Church at the field. The floats would be switched on at 6.30pm. Come down and have an AWESOME time. Call me for more details.
2. some really cool videos:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_Vlfdzw1IQ (Who Killed Santa?)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pvTL557VFw (The Madagascar Penguins In A Christmas Caper)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKcQCQTGoIA (merry christmas)

wild wild wet!

God really works wonders.

It rained on Monday. It rained on Tuesday. And praise God that yesterday when the few of us wanted to go to wild wild wet, God held the rain for us. The whole day was so warm and the sun shone brightly in the sky. Yeah it was great.

Ok, our plan yesterday was this. We were all supposed to meet at ps and call ewen who was working somewhere at the east to see if it was going to rain. So if it was going to rain, ewen was supposed to come down and watch a movie with us if not we would go to pasir ris, to wild wild wet. But yeah, in the end, Ewen ended work earlier so he came down. And we ended up staring at the clouds, while eating ice cream, to see if it would rain. But that didn't really help cos half the sky look great while the other half looked threatening. So I checked with my dad who worked in the east to check the weather condition. When given the thumbs up, we made our way down to pasir ris. And were supposed to meet Mag there at 2.30

Ok so like we reached there quite quickly but had to wait like forever for mag. for some reason she left school only at 2. and at 3 we couldn't take it anymore so we made our way to wild wild wet first. Ewen waited for Mag and then they came down not long after. Delicia, Gerald and I started to get cranky and so we bought chocolates. Haha. Ok we had to wait for mag cos supposedly she had some discount. But in the end only Mag, Cher, Gloria and Xin Wei got it la.. So Delicia, Ewen, Nicholas, Gerald and I had to pay full price. So we got ourselves a card and we just entered wild wild wet. Not knowing why the other 4 had to go to the toilet outside. Ok so the five of us changed and went swimming.

I expected much more from wild wild wet but yeah. Got kinda disappointed initially. But with friends, it made everything much more fun. Shall not elaborate on the rides. But seriously, you must go there with a big big big group of really fun and whacky friends like mine. And you'll seriously enjoy yourself. And go for the whole day. Don't be like us. Go so late then forced to leave at 7. haha.

Yeah so thank God so so so much for blessing us with such great weather. He could have just let it continue raining but no, He held the rain for us. And today it's starting to pour. Yeah. It really works wonders.

God of wonders

Lord of all creation

Of the water, earth and sky

The Heavens are your Tabernacle

Glory To the Lord on high

God of wonders

Beyond our galaxy

You are holy, holy

The universe declares your majesty

You are holy, holy

Early in the morning

I will celebrate the light

And when I stumble into darkness

I will call your name by night

God of wonders

Beyond our galaxy

You are holy, holy

The universe declares your majesty

You are holy, holy

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Holy, holy

Holy, holy

God of wonders

Beyond our galaxy

You are holy, holy

Precious Lord,

Reveal your heart to me

Father hold me, hold me

The Universe

Declares your majesty

You are Holy, Holy

Holy, Holy

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Sigh

It pains my heart, knowing I can never bring myself to say it. That I've to keep this a secret.

And yet if I ever do say it, I'll have to kill myself.

Why is life so so unfair?

Stupid, why does my heart hurt so bad?

Will you ever stop and ask me why I'm in this state? To rescue me as I fall in this bottomless pit, just because I can't share this. Or will I always be falling until the day I admit my heart's desires.

Do you even care?

Is there any way I can forget who you are?

Praise God

Today we had an evaluation after sunday school. For all those who went for mission trip. Ok basically, there was a bit of sharing on what we did and how we felt after certain events.

And then it came to the topic on the typhoon. Ok just to let those who don't know. On the 8th Dec, a friday, there were typhoon and terrorists warnings. So ya. Parents started to panic and teachers were trying their best to get us out of Cebu in case of anything. And at that point of time when all of us were informed, we learnt that the typhoon was coming our way.

So it came as a shock to most of us. Some started fearing the worst. But it was at that point of time when you can actually see everyone at their best behavior. Everyone was given instructions to pack a overnight bag in case we had to run and pack everything, ready to go. Our overnight bag had clothes and toiletries la. We placed all our food supplies altogether. (that wasn't much la. Not say we had a lot of food there). We also started filling up all the water bottles we had. The 6 litres ones and every other water bottle we had.

But even though there was a pinch of fear in everyone. Basically we were still quite optimistic about the whole thing. Almost everyone was wearing their new caps and packed in their new clothes because they feared they would never get to wear it again. Like yeah, that's kinda retarded la. So ya. To tell you the truth, we weren't that scared.

But today is when I discovered that over at the Luoyuan side, they were panicking for us. Ok a few of them told me before la. But today it was like enforced. And it's kind of nice to know that even over there, there were people caring for us. Worried for us.

And like what someone shared(I shall not say who), there's really power in prayer. With all the prayers from three countries. The typhoon actually 'u-turned' just as it came closer and closer to us.

God really cares for us. And I must say I'm really grateful for that. Even though I really wanted to see the typhoon. It's also very nice to know that God works in such ways. To make sure that no matter what, we ALL return in one piece..

Thank God.

ps: If you want to know the story on how we got the tickets, just ask me. Cos it's really a very nice story. Yeah.

Funny videos

Ok, I wanted to blog about Cebu but I guess I'll just do that another day.

I was looking through my pictures and videos just now when I chanced upon the pictures taken in intermediate camp. Truly time flies. It was like half a year ago when the camp took place and almost a year since I told myself I wanted to have the intermediate camp. Yet it seems like only yesterday did I come home from the camp.

I remembered the tough nights I had before the camp and all. This is one thing that I'm truly proud of the whole level for doing. I'm glad that even though we didn't really do a perfect job planning, that the camp still went through. All the nights when I just felt like crying, cos I was informed that many things were not done, was all worth it. Even though the camp would have been much better if I didn't recieve such phone calls

Yeah we didn't exactly get very nice numbers. But it was just the company of those who were there. The crazy things we did to entertain ourselves. Basically God really helped us through. Seriously, if the sec one camp was planned the way we did intermediate camp, we are bound to get into trouble. I'm going to honestly say that I thought that planning could have been much better. But ya.

If ever given the chance. I would gladly plan another camp. But time is not on my side. I should stop being too ambitious. Not good for me.

Anyway, these are some links to the videos.

Nicholas Dancing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZ0MzVnMUqE

Gerald and Leonard Singing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2O3bQ68nKU

Yeah that's all I have for now.

and I'm back!

I'M BACK FROM CEBU

and I really miss that place like crazy.

I've many stories to share. But maybe I'll do that later.

I'm glad to have made many many new friends. To be able to touch the lives of many.

So as for now, this is all I have to say. Stay tune to find out more of what happened in the trip!

She's back

Hip Hip Hooray

Horrors of horrors

Santa Claus is coming to town

PAMELA is in town

Yes, my poot of a cousin is in Singapore again. And the way I found out was the weirdest. I got out of the car and there she was screaming hi. And after all the thousand and one hair jobs she did, she finally settled for black hair. Like how her hair was originally. Dunno why she bothered trying so many other different shades. Most of them didn't work out for her anyway.

Ok la. It's not really that horrible for her to be back la. But trust me. She can really disrupt peace once she gets hyper. Pam (the poot) if you ever read this, then all the more you shouldn't disturb your oh so great cousin. And make me do such horrible things. And now that you're back, you better go to Mama's house early and help her cook. Later she not happy

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Ok shall not talk about her anymore. Oh I can't wait. I'm going to CEBU in like 3 days? But as usual I haven't started packing. When will I ever learn that I should start packing a few days before. So that I can buy anything I require.

CEBU is going to be oh oh so fun!

Faithful enough?

This is a true story of something that happened just a few years ago at USC. There was a professor of philosophy there who was a deeply committed atheist. His primary goal for one required class was to spend the entire semester to prove that God couldn't exist.

His students were always afraid to argue with him because of his impeccable logic. For twenty years, he had taught this class and no one had ever had the courage to go against him.

Sure, some had argued in class at times, but no one had ever really gone against him because of his reputation.

At the end of every semester on the last day, he would say to his class of 300 students,

"If there is anyone here who still believes in Jesus, stand up!"

In twenty years, no one had ever stood up. They knew what he was going to do next. He would say, "Because anyone who believes in God is a fool".

If God existed, he could stop this piece of chalk from hitting the ground and breaking. Such a simple task to prove that He is God, and yet He can't do it."

And every year, he would drop the chalk onto the tile floor of the classroom and it would shatter into a hundred pieces.

All of the students would do nothing but stop and stare.

Most of the students thought that God couldn't exist. Certainly, a number of Christians had slipped through, but for 20 years, they had been too afraid to stand up.

Well, a few years ago there was a freshman who happened to enroll. He was a Christian, and had heard the stories about his professor. He was required to take the class for his major, and he was afraid. But for three months that semester, he prayed every morning that he would have the courage to stand up no matter what the professor said, or what the class thought.

Nothing they said could ever shatter his faith...he hoped.

Finally, the day came. The professor said, "If there is anyone here who still believes in God, stand up!" The professor and the class of 300 people looked at him, shocked, as he stood up at the back of the classroom.

The professor shouted, "You FOOL!!! If God existed, he would keep this piece of chalk from breaking when it hit the ground!"

He proceeded to drop the chalk, but as he did, it slipped out of his fingers, off his shirt cuff, onto the pleat of his pants, down his leg, and off his shoe. As it hit the ground, it simply rolled away unbroken.The professor's jaw dropped as he stared at the chalk. He looked up at the young man, and then ran out of the lecture hall.

The young man who had stood, proceeded to walk to the front of the room and shared his faith in Jesus fror the next half hour.300 students stayed and listened as he told of God's love for them and of His power through Jesus.

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In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking..............

Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Isn't it funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.

Isn't it funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. Or is it scary?

Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God ).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Isn't it funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Isn't it funny how someone can be so fired up for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week

Are you laughing?

Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.

Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

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You know, even though it gets really annoying after a while to recieve such emails. What said in it is kinda true. How sure can we be that in times of pressure that we would definately stand up for God. Is our faith in Him strong enough? And I really got to agree that for many times, I don't put God first. I admit, I find it really hard to always put God first. Sometimes there are things that I know I shouldn't do, but I just can't prevent myself from doing. And recently, I don't even want to do QT. I'll find a thousand and one reasons and always end up feeling guilty. Yet not do anything.

I wonder how I can make my faith stronger. I hope this mission trip can help me in that.

Best Friends Forever

I was just going through my photos when I chanced upon this one. Jessica and I. And when I saw it, it hit me. Even though it's like some really obvious fact and something I knew since forever. It's really cool to be able to grow up with someone for so so long. Ok we grew up with Ziteng too but I don't have a photo with all three of us in it. In fact I don't think I have any photos of him. We should take one, one day. Yeah.

Hopefully we'll continue to be friends like for the rest of our lives. May nothing ever come between our friendship!

That goes to all my other friends as well ok?

Memories that will last

It has been like almost a month into the holidays and I don't really find any meaning in it. Somehow, even though I told myself I'll just concentrate on studying. It has come to a point where I am so sick of studying. Seriously, enough is enough. But yet, because of O levels, I still have to continue.

When will all this end? (as in the studying, not the holidays)

I find myself either wasting my time by doing nothing or just wishing (while studying) that I could just escape from all of it. Ok, basically I just want to play everyday. And go out and all that. But that's not going to be very possible is it?

So there's like 6 more days to CEBU! now that's a trip I'm really looking forward for. I know we're supposed to be there on a mission trip but I'm very excited to just spend like one week with my friends over there. If would have been even better if we didn't have to split into two teams (one to luoyuan and the other to cebu).

But I'm sure we'll all still have fun. I hope everything goes well. With all of us going, it's sure to be a very fun and successful mission trip. Cos WE'RE ALL SO COOL!! haha

And I'm not saying I didn't enjoy my other trips. I felt that the Japan trip was such a blast.

Speaking of the Japan trip. I have to officially say that we will be no longer performing with the sec fours. That is so sad. What Rui Jun said was true. MG HANDBELL performing choir '05-'06 really was a legend. Even though I don't really know the standard of the previous groups, I really feel that no other group can beat MG HANDBELL performing choir '05-'06 .

To think that when I first joined the performing choir I thought that the cliques would be very strong. But I was proven so so wrong.

Now that we'll be parted. I guess all we're left behind are the memories. To think that Yun Jing and I skipped through the streets of Japan singing the tune that the traffic light played. Practically going high and really crazy. But we had fun. With Krystle being her oh so ego self. Joining our human chain. And Lao Da should never be allowed to straighten her hair. Because then she'll go mad. And seriously, I mean mad. Jane being the forever so logical one. And yet her weakness is to find out who she's fan of. And Ah Ma being so blur and forever sleeping. Haha.

Yeah. And that's only a small part of it.

Now all that I can wish for is that these memories never leave me...

in need of answer

I just can't stop wanting it. I want all of it

But it is meant to be mine?

Can I juggle everything and keep everything in balance?

Will I be able to cope?

Can I make the people around me less worried and more proud?

Will I let myself down?

Why do I always get stuck in such decisions?

It's true that for certain events I would love to be in the limelight, but for now, I think I need to hide in the shadows.

What is the best solution for this?

Lord please help me...

nz/japan

Finally that question has been asked. So I've been to two trips and why is there no posting on it or even any pictures uploaded.

Ok, Bascially I'm just plain lazy. Because I've so much to blog about and I know that once I start, I'll be very determined to make sure I describe everything very well. So for this post, I'll make it really brief.

Firstly

The weather in both Japan and New Zealand was really very nice. It's like you don't require any thick winter jackets. Just a slightly thicker than normal one will do. And the minute I got home, I thought I was being cooked. Singapore's weather is so much more warmer and more humid. How I miss the weather

Secondly

It was nice to have a break from eating the same thing almost every day. I got to try different types of food, which was rather ok la. The only thing I missed was something spicy. Well, you could say, "once an Asian, always an Asian".

Thirdly

The people there in both NZ and Japan are super nice. They treat everyone so nicely and they really make you feel so at home over there. People like them make overseas trips so much more comforting, especially when you start to miss home. You can really see them caring for you and all. It's really a very nice feeling.

Yeah I guess that's all I'm going to post for now. See how la, if I ever feel like posting on my trips. But if you ask me face to face, I'll have a thousand and one stories to share.

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.At work and school, you do best when you're researching.When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

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Haha, this is so so true. Don't ask me why I did this. I was just so bored. Let me see if there are anymore nice ones to do.

cool friends!

Ok. Just came home from a performance.

Well this performance I must say was really AWESOME! I'll admit to everyone now that the handbell choir have room for improvement. So you must be wondering why I find this performance nice.

Firstly and sadly I want to say it's not because I feel that playing for this occasion is fun. It was like ok la. Part of me was not very keen. Yet at the same time I was kinda excited. I'm one step closer to achieve my aim of getting to know the sec ones better. I hope they don't find me weird. But they are really funny people. Actually everyone in the choir is funny. ESPECIALLY ME!! I'm like so ego.. Secondly it is nice to know that the president enjoyed it. But the most important thing is this..

Like they say. A picture says a thousand words. So the more pictures, the more words. Haha. Lame..

My brothers and cousins. I don't think they wanted to come though.

My parents, uncles, aunties and grandparents. Not forgetting my cute cousin.

And the really nice people who actually came down and supported me. Well at least I hope that's why you're there for. You guys rock! You are all really the best! And I mean it. Thank you so so much for coming! And for the gifts as well. Thanks for making people envy me. My conductor thought it was my birthday. Haha. Yeah. And can I ask why is Daniel hiding and Gerald doing whatever he's doing. haha

And my family too. I was so upset at the thought that they could not make it. So thanks so much for making the effort to come.

The feeling of Christmas is starting to flood my heart.

Yo mates

Yo Mates!!

Yeah I've been back from New Zealand since Tuesday but I've never been in the mood to blog about it. And I'm not here to update about it yet. Too lazy. See my mood later.

I'll post all the pics and details about the trip another time. All I can say now is that the trip was AWESOME!! Yeah.

Anyway. Till then.

to learn to let go

I haven't been blogging for a while. And due to time constrain, I'll just try to keep this short. See if time is on my side today.

In a matter of hours I'll be flying to New Zealand. And to tell the truth, I'm kinda nervous. I don't really want to go. I'm already starting to miss my family and friends. My first overseas trips without my parents. I really dunno what to expect. And yet, part of me is really excited. I mean like, going to New Zealand is once in life time opportunity. I'm sure I'll come back with many stories to share. But as for now, I need to find something to help me calm down. To assure me that everything will turn out ok. I really hope that this trip would be a memorable one. Hopefully all will work out well.

And I'm really worried for this sunday's worship. Hopefully the band will do me proud. I hope I don't hear any negative comments. But I don't think that would be the case la. They're not first timers. I just hope that they'll have a smooth prac, and that nothing bad would happen.

I wonder if anyone would miss me. Besides my family who SHOULD miss me. haha. Even though I love going for camps and all. Somehow, going for this trip is somehow different. I don't understand why I'm feeling so nervous. Usually I would be so excited that I can't sit down. But for this trip, I'm just trying to delay everything. What is holding me back? Is it love?

Maybe just to hear a few words of assurance, my heart would be at ease.

Oh and thank you so much delicia for that 'goodie bag' you packed for me. haha. so sweet of you. I know it would be of great help to me in the plane. Hopefully I don't die in the stupid plane. The flight is so so so long. I hope I can just sleep throughout all the pain.

I really need to learn to let go. To let my heart be at ease. And yet, I just can't seem to do it...

Miss Swan Eyewitness

oh this is so so so funny. recommended to me by delicia and pho! ahhaha. enjoy watchin!!

Footprints

Down in the dumps...

That was all a thing of the past.

Who ever said that once I hit the bottom of the pit that I'll spend the rest of my life there? So you thought that I would stay like that forever. No way! I'm climbing back up this very moment. There is no way I am going to let the joyful side of me die away.

So you think I was all alone? Think again...

One night a man had a dream. He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints on the sand -- one belonging to him and the other to the Lord. When the last scene had flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints and he noticed only one set. He also noticed that this happened during the lowest and saddest times of his life. This bothered him and he questioned the Lord. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk all the way with me, but I noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life there was only one set of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you deserted me."

The Lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, those were the times when I carried you in my arms."

So how does all this relate?

Ok. So I was down in the dumps. I thought that I was all alone, with no one who could actually understand what I was going through. But I was wrong. So so wrong. I basically forgot that I had friends who cared. I thought I couldn't talk to my parents. But once again was proven to have made a mistake. And the worst part was that I didn't remember that God was always there for me. At that point I felt so alone in the world.

But somehow or rather, I felt like I bounced back up. It was like a sudden turn of events. And the funny thing is that I cannot explain how any of these happened, or why it happened. Maybe it was when I actually felt that people cared for me, that I actually snapped out of the crazy state I was in.

Yeah so I was full of regrets. But it's kind of too late. I only got myself to blame. I could have changed the situation, but I didn't. I've to reap what I sowed. Maybe I could take it as a lesson learnt. Maybe my 'downfall' will actually show me a new perspective of things.

And I guess the most important thing I learnt is that during all those times when I thought I was alone, God was actually carrying me through the trials and sufferings. I was never alone. And on top of that, I still have friends and family around me, whom I am very certain care for me.

So I hereby dare say.

I AM BACK!

Or so I hope.

emo moment

Will this feeling ever go away? Is it too late for regrets? Why is there no explanation for what I am feeling right now?

A mixture of emotions.

Happy. Sad. Disappointed. Confused. Angry. Lost.

This is not me. But if so, then where am I? Where is that girl whom people say is always happy? Where am I?

I really don't know why I'm feeling like this. Is this like something everyone has to go through. Because I definately don't want to go through this anymore. I feel like I hit rock bottom. But why am I going through all these? That's like something that I really cannot understand. And yet somehow I feel really disappointed with myself. I miss my old self. So once again the question is, where am I?

Lost.

Will someone please bring me back?

By faith I'll be back.

Shower me with Your love and show me the way.

the need to be left alone

Just leave me alone...

Can't you just understand that we cannot take it anymore. That I can't go through anymore of this. Of course I won't dare talk to you about anything. Do you even bother to listen? Do you even show any concern? So many a times I just want you to just listen to me, with your mouth saying only words of comfort. Yet you disappoint me. You won't even do something as basic as that for us. For me. Do you know that sometimes your words do hurt? How am I going to tell you the rest when things already reached this stage?

Shattered. Destroyed. Broken. Depressed. Lost. Confused.

Why do all these have to happen? How long more can I actually hold out? Will it be long before another smile can appear on my face?

I don't know what to do anymore.

Lord please show me the way.

Friday The Thirteen

Cool, once again it is FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN. And no I'm not superstitious.

Going to add colour to this boring place. See how it turns out..

Today as mentioned in the earlier post, my friends came over la. Don’t think I need to elaborate on it. Actually I just don’t feel like.

Anyway, Handbells was rather fun today. Initially, before Mrs Aw came, we were quite lost in the songs that we were playing. And after a while, we ended up trying out every single song. I kinda like the finally decision on what songs that we are playing. Especially because we get to play “IN HEAVENS THE BELLS ARE RINGING”!!! I like that song. Ever since last year, it has been stuck in my head. But the sad thing is that we have to play in front of that stupid fountain again outside taka. No one is going to be able to hear us la. Heard that Mrs Aw requested for them to switch the fountain off. Yeah right. Like that would actually happen. No wait! Must think positive. Be optimistic. All things are possible!! Yeah and the other songs include "Joy to the world" and a medly of "Carol of the bells and God rest ye merry gentlemen" All these are such such nice songs. So all of you should come down to taka on the 11 Nov and come watch the internationally acclaimed MGS HANDBELL CHOIR!! But I dunno what time is it.. I'll post it once I know. hahaha

I realized my blog is so, so, so not entertaining. And I’m just updating for the sake updating. There’s just no excitement when I blog now. I need to find another purpose for my blog. Make this place more meaningful.

Ok I've reached the point whereby I cannot hide it from you anymore. I really hate to be the one who has to play the bad guy and tell you all these. Trust me; you won't want to hear a single word. There's nothing else I can do now. No matter how hard I try, you still need to give me time. However I'm really sure that time is not on your side. I know that each time you sit down there alone, listening to the ticking of the clock, your mind is filled will all the crazy thoughts. Is there no way you can get your mind distracted by something else? I'll really, really try my best to help, but as for now I can't promise you anything.

updates

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER! ok so I'm a day late, but I just didn't feel like using the computer yesterday. But I'm really really worried of getting my papers back. I don't want to see my results just yet, unless I know for sure that I'll do well. SO SO SO SCARY!

Yesterday went out with Jessica, Gerald, Daniel and Nicholas to Jurong Point. I wanted to go there in hope that I could finally be the first one to reach home. We wanted to watch John Tucker must die, but in the end we watched World Trade Centre. Ok that show is not considered bad, but it's not fantastic. Gerald, Nicholas and I got bored after a while. I found that show a waste of money if you asked me for my honest opinion.. Yeah. Then we met up with Kui Luan and had dinner with her. We ate at Billy Bombers. So Expensive, I feel so bad eating there. I'm not really going to elaborate on what else happened la.. Ok, then the most ironic thing happened. I was supposed to be the FIRST to reach home. But guess what, my father drove everyone home, and once again I was the last one to reach home. I've no idea how that always happens. But yes, once again it DID happen. That's so not possible la.

Today I didn't do much. Like I wanted to sleep in, but mummy woke me up at 10. Like she can't let me sleep.. Anyway, I was so tired but was trying my best to stay awake. Then I had breakfast, had no choice but to practise piano and then because of my cold, I was so sleepy that I fell asleep. Then I actually managed to wake up when the alarm clock rang. Then I baked and got annoyed after a while when the thing I was tryin to bake couldn't stick together. So now I'm online. I've nothing better to do.

Tomorrow I've handbells prac. So sian la. I don't see why Miss Sim wants us to start prac so soon. Like we've all been studying like siao for so long, and now only ONE day break and now handbells. With all these handbells, we're going to get so stressed out again if we can't master our piece. Maybe we shouldn't accept the invitations. But since we already have, we need to prac for it. Actually I love performing. But i just want a longer break before we start the handbells intensive again. I kinda want to sleep in tomorrow morning. But looks like I can't. Oh well. I've friends coming over tmr. (TOC plus delicia) If there is anyone I forgot to invite, just tell me and please feel welcomed to come. I didn't mean to leave anyone out, but I just forgot who I called and all. Yeah.. No offence intended.

Ok, I've finally updated this dead place. Hopefully it would be much more alive.. hahah.

Jia You

all I need is one last burst of energy and then it'd be all over. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TILL ALL OF IT IS OVER!! I'm going mad! I'm so so stressed!

Yeah, I don't really want to post about anything. So ya. Here's my exams schedule. And after all these, I'LL BE FREE!! back to the fun stuff like handbells, non stop nonsense, going out etc..

02 Oct - English paper 1

Social studies

03 Oct - Chinese paper 1

Geography paper 2

04 Oct - English paper 2

Chemistry paper 1

Chemistry paper 2

05 Oct - Mathematics paper 1

06 Oct - Mathematics paper 2

09 Oct - Additional Mathematics paper 1

Literature Elective

10 Oct - Additional Mathematics paper 2

Physics paper 1

Physics paper 2

11 Oct - Chinese paper 2

Chinese paper 3

Geography paper 1

Oh and good luck to everyone out there taking exams!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your understanding" Proverbs 3:5

monica + needles = ahhhh

I've said it before and I'm going to say it again. I can't stand needles!! Why must we have this vacination jab because we are going to mission trip. I'm really very scacred of that stupid needle. How I wish they will come up with new methods of giving us vacination besides needles. I kept on telling myself that I would be ok, but when people started to try scare others by emphasising on the needle and the whole procedure, I could just feel myself just break down. Like suddenly I told myself that I was not prepared to go through it and there was this sudden rush of fear. I really tried to hold back my tears, but like, the tears just kept on rolling down. It's times like this when I realise that I'm really really scared of needles. I think I teared so much that ewen and seth stopped scaring people. They were like trying to get me to calm down. So embarrassing. But I'm glad that I took the vacination with people from church cos I'm closer to them. I think if I took it with people from school. Then it would be worst. Cos at least in church there are teachers and my father was there. And yeah, the friends there are like people I know for a longer time. yeah.

Exams coming. need to go study..

Sunday School Sunday

Today was Sunday School Sunday. I must say that I really enjoyed myself except for a few stuff. But it's not nice to be remembering the sad events.. And I don't really feel like elaborating what happened. Maybe another time la..


yeah, I really dunno what to do anymore. I cannot continue being stuck in the middle anymore. Why can't you all just be happy together. There are people trying, yet there are others not wanting to do anything about it. What can I do to make all these stop? Do you all need to see my tears of confusion and frustration before all these can come to an end? Sometimes I find it so destroying to see both of you like that. And yet sometimes it just get really annoying. It really needs to stop. This cannot ever continue. The gossips, the backstabbing, the hyprocracy(spelling?) all got to stop.. I cannot take anymore of this.

no..

It's been a long time since I used to computer. or so I think. All my mum has allowed me to do is to either study or practise the piano. And I'm going mad la.

And then my mum was starting to threaten to pull me out of handbells and out of all the activities I had in church. And that was when I thought it started to become really unfair and unreasonable. My parents were the one who were happy for me when I first got promoted to the performing choir, then to part of the committee and once again I got promoted to another role in the committee. And yet now they are the one trying to pull me out of it, threatening to not let me take part in SYF. The reason why I worked so hard in handbells is because I want to play in SYF. Like if I can't play in that, then isn't handbells kinda meaningless? I really dunno how to make her stop using SYF to threaten me. It's getting kinda annoying. I thought they said they'll support me? and now they are threatening me. so exactly what are they supporting?

And for Sunday School Sunday. Ya I can tell my mum isn't too happy with all the practices I have. But it's going to be over in 2 weeks!! And not say I don't study la. Cos if I don't study, she practically nags at me until I start. And yes, she's been threatening to pull me out. And I thought I was the only one. Never thought that Jessica was facing the same problem too. Now she can't come for practice tomorrow. I think both our mothers are having a very big obsession over studying. Stupid EOYs. So so stressful. Why must Singapore education system be so tough?

And I SO SO DISLIKE MY PIANO TEACHER! I tell you, she has something against me. I cut my nails and it grew like a bit, and she complained non stop just because my hands slip. like just ONE note. and like I dunno what's wrong with her. She can go on and on about how I should play a certain style. Not my fault my other teacher taught me wrongly right. Now I'm trying as hard as I can to adjust. But it's very hard to change a habit la. And just because I didn't take grade 7 exam, she's not happy. Another person who's threatening me. She keeps on saying that if I don't try harder, she'll make me take grade 7 instead of 8. Seriously, I just can't stand her la. She's the first teacher who makes me dislike lessons so badly. And she wants me to prac everyday 2 hours? hello? me got life. And like I don't even have time to study, talk about playing the piano. Unless the neighbours don't mind me playing at midnight.

Ahhhhh. I'm going mad!!! Oh well. I better go off now lest my mum complain. Till the time comes when I can use the computer again. :)

Jeanie learning to count

jeanie learning to count

i'm so sorry jeanie. I just couldn't resist posting this

PRESIDENT STAR CHALLENGE

ok I don't know what date blogger will put this post as, but according to my clock, it's 12.49am..

TONIGHT MG HANDBELLS WILL BE PLAYING IN PRESIDENT STAR CHALLENGE!! SO SO SO EXCITING! EVERYONE MUST TAKE NOTE OF US AND DONATE WHEN WE'RE PLAYING OK?!!

that's like one of the more positive things about the event.. There are quite a bit of negative stuff too like our costume which we'll try to alter later on.. really really makes everyone look pregnant. really gross. and ya. not going to post much today, maybe after the performance.. I'M SUPER EXCITED!!!

cookies!

LOOK!!! haha. I baked cookies today. In the fastest time I ever did. 2 batches in 2 hours!! haha. I usually take longer time... Therefore I've come to the conclusion that I can work well under pressure cos it was my mum who told me that no matter what, I must start studying at 8. And she's kinda not at home now, that's why I can post this. hahah. But I've to do other stuff on the com too.. So not so bad.. Yeah.. Don't my cookies look yummy? haha. Everyone better say yes.. Cos I love them. My first time baking this whole year.. That's how busy I've been la. Usually I'll be able to bake a few times a year. Especially during every holidays. But I've been so busy that I didn't have time to bake during the June holidays. And the june Holidays are like how long la. so see. Monica is a very busy girl.. Anyway. that's so not the point. I've to go back to studying and completing all my assignments. Haha. Till I've time to come back here again..

watch us!!

Have not been visiting my own blog for quite a while. Quite a bit has been happening but knowing me, as I try to type everything down, I most probably will forget half the things I want to talk about. And just to let the people who frequent here know, I won't be updating my blog till after exams. But as and when I can, I'll try to update. Yeah.

I shall share about the whole week. Somehow or rather I've been really tired the whole week. Anyway, last sunday's car wash was really fun. Yet somehow it was in a way quite annoying. Dunno how to say, and don't think I should really say why here. Yeah. Not nice.haha.. Yeah then school and all that blah blah.. Also not nice to complain about those stuff here.

Then FRIDAY! we had 3 geog periods that day and if my whole class hates me for having such an arrangement then I really dunno what to do anymore. Cos such an arrangement was made so that we would be able to sell food items to raise funds for sabbaticals during the primary school recess. Yeah. Cos Mrs Lim doesn't want to give up her periods and so the only other way was to find other periods for her to exchange. Haha. Now she can't say that we are stealing her periods cos we already repaid her. And during CME we had to type out all the contributions we did for school, class and community la. And I was so greedy, I wanted to write at least one page long. And that miss tan called me a mother. So what la. And she suddenly remembered that there was class chapel. So ya. Have to go prepare. But it's like some normal thing for me to plan worship. So yeah.

Yeah and somehow I wasn't looking forward to handbells yesterday. Maybe I was kinda tired of it. It's like we are only playing one new song, the other two the handbell choir '06' played before. So it's like quite sian la. And like we suck. We practically played burong kakak tua for 1 hour 15 min and yet still made a lot of mistakes. We are just going to embarrass ourselves on stage. And that will be really bad. We might as well don't go perform at this rate. So annoying. So little time and so so so much more to practice.

Ok. This will be my last post for quite a while. or maybe I'll update next week. OH AND EVERYONE MUST WATCH THE MGHANDBELLS CHOIR PERFORM ON PRESIDENT STAR CHALLENGE!! YAY!!!!!

random thoughts

WOW! I just finished printing out all the chords for tomorrow's sunday school sunday (sss) prac. And that was such a difficult job la. With the printer full of nonsense and the computer full of dunno what problem. I took more than an hour to print out all the chords. And with people non stop talking to me, I got so distracted and starting talking to them, which caused my com to lag. So annoying. But yeah, finally it's done! I feel so accomplished but yet really annoyed.

Tomorrow's CAR WASH! ahaha! I can't wait.. Tracy and Michelle are coming. Haha. YAY! but so sad Ya Ting cannot come. Don't worry Ya Ting, when there are any other fun activities, I'll let you know, then you can try to come for them! Yeah.

Ok, I don't really have much to blog about. Today Ya Ting, Tracy, Michelle and Zhi Wai came to my house to do the english project. So stupid la. I think we spend more time looking for the oh-so-gross pictures. They are super disgusting. My com is 'corrupted'. And you know what? I officially declare my house to be a place where people come to play. I realised people find it very hard to study or do any proper work at my house. But when it comes to playing, everyone is very good at doing it. And yeah, once again, everyone loved the swings at the playground. HAHA. I used to think every playground would have it, but guess I'm wrong. They all acted as if they never saw a swing before. Haha. oh well. Yeah.

I got nothing else to write about.. such a boring post.. but I need to revive this horrible place. So ya. Mission accomplished

Cher and Vicky part 2

Cher and Vicky part 1

live blog live!

sigh.. so many things going on and the end years are coming soon.. Ahhh I need to seriously start studying.

ok I just posted this to update this stupid dead blog of mine. Another time when I've inspiration then I'll come back. In the meanwhile I need to go discipline myself to study for end years and made sure I do well.

and you know that I love you

I've said it before and I'll say it again. You never know how much something is worth to you until you are about to lose it or have already lost it.

Today I realised how much I really love my mum. My mum has a operation today for some kind of infection. (please don't go around talking about this or telling anyone) So like for someone like me, who really cannot wake up early in the morning, I actually found myself getting up before anyone else in my house just to make sure I see my mum before she leaves. But somehow I couldn't make myself just go up to her so I sat in my room and looked at my father and mother get ready to leave for the hospital in the wee hours of the morning. So finally I found enough 'courage' in me to actually go to the living room to see my mum leave. But at the point when my mum left the house, I just couldn't stop crying. I was so worried that something bad might happen. I mean like, yeah, I've been praying really hard, there was a part of me that was so so worried for her. As I saw the car leave the estate, I was so worried that was the last time I see my mum. I think too much sometimes. And because I was so tired, I just cried myself to sleep.. And then I had to wake up at 9 for tuition and it was then I recieved a call from my father saying that my mum's operation was over and that she was now resting.. It made my realised that having faith is really important. And committing everything to God's hand is like a must. The night before we were all praying for mummy and today too. And I guess it's because we believed that God will help us, or rather protect mummy and all, that it really happened.

So ya, what am I trying to say? Firstly, whenever you've a problem, just commit it to God then have faith that He will help you and bring you through. And Secondly, cheris whatever you have.

Today was like a learning experience for me. I learnt that even though sometimes it may look embarrassing, it's really ok to express my love for my family because I may never know when the last time I can do so..

So what if I seem like a cry baby at times. So what if I cry? As long as I get it out of my system and know that I'm crying for a good reason, there's really nothing wrong with the tears that roll down my cheeks.

I miss you guys badly!

How I wish I could just go back in time and re-live the memorises once again. It's always like this. The minute everything is taken away from you, you just wish you have cherised it more when it was still around. How can I ever learn not to take things for granted. Everything and anything, how can I learn to appreciate what I have?

I just can't seem to let go, or rather I just don't want to let go. I know by this time I should start to move on but the memories are just keeping me from doing so. All the time that was spent together has made such a huge impact on my life. But it just ended just like that.

But I've decided. That since there is no way to live in the past, the only way to allow me to remember all of you, is to impact others the way you impacted my life.

However this doesn't mean I'll ever forget all of you. I hope the same goes for all of you. For this is one of those times when it come to the stage where I love you all so much to let you all go. Things will never be the same again...

I feel like a cry baby. I can cry over such issues like anytime. And to top that off, I just have so much on my mind. Sometimes I just wish someone would just listen to all my problems and never bring it up again. But hey, who ever wants to listen to such stuff..

monica's hotline

Everytime I have an 'intellectual' topic I want to post on, I always get really excited cos it won't be a post on my everyday life and my feelings. But everytime I start blogging, I suddenly have no inspiration to do my 'intellectual' topic, and I would once again be posting on my everyday life and yes, my feelings.. so here goes..

I was reading a few blogs just now. And yeah. People all around me seem to be like having problems or have something troubling them. Sad isn't it. But that's not all. Somehow or rather, each of those people have at least one person standing up for them. Defending them. So it got me thinking. Here I have friends who are upset and facing problems. What can I do? Besides lending a listening ear, is there nothing else I can do? What if they don't want to share their problems? Then what can I do? Would my very presence be comforting to that person, knowing that at least there is someone there?

You know it's really weird. Because I know that when I'm upset, I just want someone to be there to listen to me complain and just be patient as I release all the unhappy thoughts from my system. But am I able to do that for others? What if I'm willing to help, but they are unwilling to recieve my help? Is that my fault? Or am I just thinking too much..

Yeah thanks a lot to those who found me helpful when I just complain alongside you. HAHA. so to those out there who need to share all your unhappiness, I'm going to tell you what I've been telling others..

Monica's hotline is on 24/7.. You can email her if you're not in any rush. You can message her if you want a faster reply. And for instant replies just call her straight. haha.

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ok. I'm not sure if I made any sense in the above nonsense. Whatever you want to call it la. I've been in this weird state for a long time. I feel very shattered inside and have been overly sensitive recently. Haiz. I really dunno what's wrong with me. I think I'm taking a few issues too seriously. And with the exams approaching. I think I'll go mad if I don't return to my normal self soon. I cannot afford to let my parents down, all the more I cannot afford to let God down. I need to snap out of this. Whatever this is.. And get serious. Get more hardworking and responsible. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I think I'm mad, on the verge of breaking down. I hate the way I am now. I'm not usually like this. THIS IS NOT ME? but if this is not me. then where am I? Who am I now?

i think i'm going crazy. I don't even know what I'm talking about..

so hard to say goodbye

This place is kinda dead isn't it. Oh well..

Yeah the hectic month of July is over. And even though it was just a few days, it seemed like forever. I MISS THE SEC FOURS ALREADY!! I DON'T WANT THEM TO LEAVE! I miss all the times when we played together. My first time playing with ther performing grp, last year in founders' day. And when I officially joined the performing group, I can remember the first song given to us was burong kakak tua, and that I had 3 different assignments until Mrs Aw finally stopped changing my positions. I miss all the times when we just sat down and eat and talk non stop. I miss Sandra aka Lao Da giving all her debriefs. I miss all the nonsense from Krystle, Lao San and Ah Ma. I miss all the logics Lao Er would give and how nice she was, never getting angry. Basically I just miss the performing group '06. It was because of this group that handbells played such an important role in my life. It was because of this group that I always looked forward to handbells, one of the reasons why I go through lessons on tuesdays and fridays, no matter how sick I am. I REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS THEM ALREADY! AND IT'S ONLY A FEW DAYS!! How I wish they don't have to go. How I wish they could stay................ Sometimes I just feel like crying, because they are leaving.. Haiz, I hope the new performing group would be as fun. Tiffany and I are going to prove to the sec fours that the performing group won't only be so close every 2 years. We are going to break all the bonds and make everyone close to each other. However, I doubt things would ever be the same...

School have not been any better. I'M SO HORRIBLE! I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SO LAZY. I have like so much work cos I could not finish everything during e learning, but yet I just don't want to do it. But I still manage to get through everyday. But I'm still dead la. Blegh. Must learn how to manage my time properly and set my priorities right. Besides the hw fact. There are still many things in school that is bothering me. I don't really want to talk about it but somehow, after thinking for a long long time. I just really want to say this. I know it's horrible to have a class chair who is very demanding, but I really hope I can recieve basic respect from my class, that they'll do as they are told, without changing anything I say. I never had any of such nonsense only until recently and sometimes it just gets very stressful. I hate it when I'm trying to please everyone that there are some people just out to make my life difficult. But that's how life is isn't it. I can't have everything the way I want it. And it got me thinking. Am I the one causing everything to be so miserable? Is it just me? I stand by my stands. I know what I want, I know what I believe in. I'm sure that my beliefs are right (not saying anyone's beliefs are wrong). I can't be expected to go against my beliefs can I? But somehow I feel that so many are against my beliefs. Or is it they just can't respect the way I think?

Life is so confusing.. I'm going to go mad at this rate.. I need to stop all of these.. I need a break from all these.. I need help!! Please pray for me. I really dunno what to do. Am I doing my job properly as a class chair?

Royston Tan FTW! Censorship at its best!

hahah. this is Jonathan.. the director of the musical at my school. hahaha.

YIPEE!!! Tomorrow's the musical. The day when all our hard work and long practice hours will finally pay off. It's going to be so much fun, performing our very best for audience who pay so so much. I hope whoever comes enjoy it. Let us all remember that we're doing this for God as this musical is about Him. I hope that through this musical, more will come to know about Christ. This could be a good way to invite more people to church.. But whatever it is.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE MUSICAL!! IT'S GOING TO BE SO SO SO EXCITING! 3 DAYS, 6 PERFORMANCES, HERE I COME!!!

I don't understand why I'm wanted to do this quiz. SERIOUSLY it's a waste of time. But since I'm arrowed twice to do it, I shall do it la. Blegh. Here goes...


The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I LOVE sushi
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

1. Tiffany
2. Rui Jun
3. Daniel
4.Jessica
5. Sarah

ok I'm finally done with this stupid quiz. haha

My blog is kinda dead isn't it..

Anyway. I've been really busy this whole week. Actually the whole month have been nothing but practices. Yeah. This week is like a handbell week. Monday missed all lessons because of Founder's Day technical run. The on Tuesday, missed all lessons again because of Founder's Day run(whole school) and Open Day technical run. And I still have normal handbell prac after school. Ok Wednesday had musical prac.. Somehow I can't remember if there was handbells during the day. I don't think so. Ya. Lao Da didn't come for that so like ya.. Not good la. Cos only Lao Da knows the cue very well. Thursday was Open Day full dress rehearsal.. That was really really bad la. We played so badly for that. Lao Da didn't come too. Ah Ma forgot there was open day rehearsal. And yesterday we had normal prac until 5.30. Then had dinner. and at 6 - 11 we had musical prac. Yeah. Craziness la. Later still have to go to school at like 2.30 cos of the real opening ceremony. Then tmr have church and musical prac from 4 - 11? Yeah.

This is only for this week. But so far it has been ok la. Mg Handbells choir just make every situation fun. Like for yesterday. We were supposed to have makeup on then somehow like that also can get very funny and exciting. Then after the first run, we went to the handbells room and started playing. We played like Jacob's ladder and all. And like I never knew the sec ones didn't know how to play. It was so so funny. Yeah then like second run..

Yeah that's basically it. Dunno if I'm looking forward to the ceremony later or not. I hope I enjoy myself.. Like somehow I don't really want to go. But in a weird way I'm looking forward to it. So like. I think I'm weird. hahahaha. oh well.

Below is from an email that Tiffany sent.. It's really funny, and in a way makes you think. Why are Africans called coloured?

This poem was nominated poem of 2005 for the best poem, written by an African kid!!!
When I born, IBlack,
When I grow up, I Black,
When I go in Sun, I Black,
When I scared, I Black,
When I sick, I Black,
And when I die, I still black..
And you White fella,
When you born, you Pink,
When you grow up, you White,
When you go in Sun, you Red,
When you cold, you Blue,
When you scared, you Yellow,
When you sick, you Green,
And when you die, you Gray..
And you calling me Colored ??

Haha. Exactly one year ago was the day that I actually knew Tiffany, Priscilla, Cherie and Isabel. It was the SYF opening ceremony and it was when the few of us, along with Petrina and Jeanie were in the dressing room, the oh so cool dressing room, waiting for the performing group to get finish all their performances.

It was then when I saw all the sec ones (currently sec twos) playing with their handphones, except for priscilla who did not have a handphone. And all 3 handphones were like 6610i and they were playin the hat dance tune, seeing which phone could 'dance'. It was super retarded. It was then that I started talking to them, and all of us started to get really high. And at that point, we started to get to know each other better and look at us today! We are just a bunch of crazy people.

To think. If exactly one year ago, if we weren't asked to come help in the opening ceremony, we might not even be friends now. Maybe it is because of our craziness, that now the choir is like this, everyone doing crazy stuff. Who knows man. What things would be like without us getting to know each other at the opening ceremony. But whatever it is, I like the way things are like now.

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! (to pris, tiffany, cherie and isabel. ahah this is so lame)

problematic

so many things are just going on...... How I wish time could just stop for a while.

Handbells is now so stressful. And if I find this stressful then next year will definately be worse. Next year is SYF, this year is only non stop performances. Now with all the musical practices, it can seriously kill us. And that is not the only performance, so that means we still have our own practices. Sometimes I think you should just keep quiet. How can you say we don't have any committment towards handbells. Half the time you aren't even with us. You don't let us do so many things, don't let us end early and still expect us to have 2 major practices one after the other and still find time for dinner. You think we are all so free? Able to go buy clothes whenever we feel like. We have to spend so much money just because they say we don't look nice. We can't be forever buying new items for each performance can we? It's crazy la. You expect us to do so much, we don't live only for handbells you know. We have a life. To think that I use to enjoy every part of handbells, but now I just dread seeing you. You make us sound so lousy when we play, yet you do no better.

And to add fuel to the fire. I still have other problems to settle. HAIZ! I don't really want to talk about it but ya. I hope everything goes well in settling it, I don't want like to in the end get wronged for something I didn't do.

But I must say that there's a silver lining on every cloud. Despite me feeling all these. I must say that I'm very blessed. I've been selected to go New Zealand, somewhere that I most probably won't be able to go with my family cos it's so expensive. And after that, I would be going Japan with my CCA. And most probably would be going to mission trip after that. 3 trips! So cool. God has really blessed me.

I hope I'd be able to go through all of this...

Stick to the status quo

this song is super nice. from HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!

Gerald = Nanny mcphee or mary?