Thursday, October 19, 2006

Footprints

Down in the dumps...

That was all a thing of the past.

Who ever said that once I hit the bottom of the pit that I'll spend the rest of my life there? So you thought that I would stay like that forever. No way! I'm climbing back up this very moment. There is no way I am going to let the joyful side of me die away.

So you think I was all alone? Think again...

One night a man had a dream. He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints on the sand -- one belonging to him and the other to the Lord. When the last scene had flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints and he noticed only one set. He also noticed that this happened during the lowest and saddest times of his life. This bothered him and he questioned the Lord. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk all the way with me, but I noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life there was only one set of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you deserted me."

The Lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, those were the times when I
carried you in my arms."


So how does all this relate?

Ok. So I was down in the dumps. I thought that I was all alone, with no one who could actually understand what I was going through. But I was wrong. So so wrong. I basically forgot that I had friends who cared. I thought I couldn't talk to my parents. But once again was proven to have made a mistake. And the worst part was that I didn't remember that God was always there for me. At that point I felt so alone in the world.

But somehow or rather, I felt like I bounced back up. It was like a sudden turn of events. And the funny thing is that I cannot explain how any of these happened, or why it happened. Maybe it was when I actually felt that people cared for me, that I actually snapped out of the crazy state I was in.

Yeah so I was full of regrets. But it's kind of too late. I only got myself to blame. I could have changed the situation, but I didn't. I've to reap what I sowed. Maybe I could take it as a lesson learnt. Maybe my 'downfall' will actually show me a new perspective of things.

And I guess the most important thing I learnt is that during all those times when I thought I was alone, God was actually carrying me through the trials and sufferings. I was never alone. And on top of that, I still have friends and family around me, whom I am very certain care for me.

So I hereby dare say.

I AM BACK!





Or so I hope.

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