2 Timothy 4

¹In the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who will judge the living and the dead, and in view of his appearing and his kingdom, I give you this charge:

²Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage—with great patience and careful instruction.

³For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.

⁴They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.

⁵But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry.

⁶For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure.

⁷I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

⁸Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.

For a long time I have tried to put what I want my life to be into words. And then a few days ago, God gave me this passage. And ya, I realise it sums up really nicely.

My two monkeys

Photo by Ziteng

I really miss these monkeys. And the recent photos make me so sad that Brendan is way taller than me now, and in matter of years, Ian will be too. SIGH.

Recently, they have been asking me this:

"Are you questioning my authority?"

I never knew they had authority over me now. Haha. Shouldn't I be the one with the authority? Such nonsense from them. But these are the stuff that makes me love them more and more. And so far, I am able to threaten them with the fact that I know Melbourne way better than them, and in order to get to eat the stuff they want, they have to be nice to me. Muahaha

Friday nights

It's just something about walking home alone every Friday night/Saturday morning, that makes me realise that I want something more to all these. For some reason, instead of walking at my usual fast pace, I will usually slow down just wishing _____. And trust me, it's not that I'm not scared, but it has come to a point, whereby I really have no choice but to go through this every week. I'm not blaming anyone, but ya. I really wish _____.

Maybe I'm not ready to tell the world what I want. But I can still dream about it.

Surviving..

Things have been going good so far, stressful, but good.

I've completed 2 essays and all my online tests. Which now leaves me with:

1. Sociology 2000 words research essay (due next Wed)
2. Exams for all 4 subjects

So ya. I have to start on my sociology research soon. Haha. I haven't even started reading through yet, which sounds scary. Then again, I better start now instead of sharing my life to the whole world. Haha.

Not by my strength, but Yours

Wednesday

I decided to take a night off from studying and writing essays. It started off fun and definitely a good way to relief stress. But now I'm just bored and kinda really want to start studying.

Yikes, I'm becoming a nerd.

On a random note. If you are feeling bothered, but you don't know what is bothering you, does that mean you're in fact not bothered, just that you think you are bothered.

Random Fact of the Day

(and also a way for me to take time off my essay)

The use of the term 'phail' in replacement of 'fail' is utterly disgusting.

And don't get me started on 'ftw' and 'gg', and many many more..

Nostalgia

Wow. Time is flying too fast. Way way way too fast. I feel so old and ancient.

What happened to those days when I would just spend hours talking on the phone, or when school days was just full of laughter? What happened to the times when I would have my 'tv schedule' and hoping really hard that mummy would let me use the computer on a weekday?

Spending my time in the library, typing my life away. Essays after essays, readings after readings. It really will never end. What will come after this? 2nd year, 3rd year, honours, masters, work...

Maybe it's just a wave of nostalgia. But I really do miss those days. Those carefree days (of course at that time we thought we were suffering. Then again, as youths, we do tend to exaggerate a lot). SEE! EVIDENCE THAT I'M GETTING OLD!! And the thing is, I'm not even that old. I'm not even old!!!

I miss hearing my phone ring for something other than an important call. I miss the endless hours talking and talking on the phone. I miss those really noisy conference calls we used to have. I miss hearing my parents threatening to take my phone away for using it too much. I miss fighting over the tv with my brothers. I miss wearing my school uni, tying my hair in the same way everyday. I miss canteen food. I miss hoping so hard that I would be allowed to go out for lunch after church. I miss going high at the most random things and just laughing with friends. I miss trying to match make people. And the list never ends. I really miss home and I honestly hope that my parents would not be able to find a buyer, no matter how selfish that sounds.

And I really need time to slow down. It's getting too fast for me to handle. Too fast.

How I wish I could go home too.

Crazy crazy workload

I suddenly feel so stressed. I was thinking about my workload and other responsibilities and suddenly everything seemed so overwhelming.

I need to list down the things I have to do.

1500 word essay - Health Science (due this Friday, 22/5)
Playing for worship this Friday
Meeting for coffee ministry this Saturday
2000 word essay - Psychology (due next Wednesday, 27/5)
Two online assignment - Psychology (due next Friday, 29/5)
2000 word essay - Sociology (due in two Wednesdays, 3/6)

Followed by 4 exams, 17th, 22nd, 24th and 26th June.
Not forgetting coffee min that will be taking place
And that my family will be here 7th-22nd June.

Ok. I need to breathe. And get back to work. Who ever said first year of uni was easy?

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Where words fail, music speaks.

Hans Christian Andersen

To The Ends Of The Earth

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are

And I would give the world to tell Your story
'Cause I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within your promise
And I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go, to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For you alone are the son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God

Psychology essay

After thinking for a LONG time, I'm finally down to two topics. I JUST CANNOT DECIDE WHICH ONE TO DO!!!!!

Should I do:

1. (learning) - What is punishment, and does it really work?
2. (developmental) - Describe the development of deception throughout childhood. What does lying suggest about the development of children’s cognitive capabilities? In your discussion include reference to the concept of theory of mind. Provide both theoretical and empirical support for your arguments.

Ok, I shall read the starting references for both and then decide, well hopefully.

Baking Therapy

Baking is a good way to relax. Very very good way.

Starting from today, I'm going to be baking much more. Only because I spent money on baking equipment and so I have to make full use of it, if not I should really stab myself. I anticipate a lot of baking in the holidays, unless I find something to do.

Those Days.

Ever had those days, when all you want to do is take a break?

To take a break from studying,
To take a break from the projects due,
To take a break from the endless assignments,
To take a break from chores,
To take a break from friends,
To take a break from family matters,
To take a break from really just life itself.

And then as you're thinking about all these things you want to take a break from, this nagging little voice at the back of your head goes 'helloo.. you still have a lot of work to finish!!'

I'm just so tired from all these. I really need a break.

Crazy. Gross. EWWWWWW

Omg, I just chanced upon this article of this lady who bit off her boyfriend's tongue. LIKE THAT'S SERIOUSLY SO SICK!!!!!

This is like an abstract from the article.

Mark Coghill said his seemingly loving girlfriend, Tracy Davies, suddenly "turned into the likes of Mike Tyson", chewed off half his tongue and spat it out on the floor in front of him.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
THAT'S SO SO SO SO SICK!!!!!

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Mas Selamat

OMG. This means that Singapore wasn't using the 'toilet escape' thing as some cover up for Mas Selamat's death, since they managed to just arrest him. Unless of course the person they arrested was some fake or something, but still. omg. haha. I'm actually quite amused at this right now.

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Mghandbells

Just thinking of my secondary school years, and the thing that stands out the most - mghandbells.

Man I really miss handbells. I think we are the only few that get laughed at by friends (especially those who don't know what handbells is) just because they cannot understand the beauty of handbells. And all the more mghandbells is like amazing. I so want to join a handbell choir here. SOMEONE FIND ME A CHOIR TO JOIN!!

And as much as I miss every single ringer I performed with, I especially miss mghandbells '06. We had so many opportunities to perform. And I was watching our mediacorp performance. So what if people laughed at us? We like learned that song in a day and 2-3 days, we were performing it on TV. If that's not amazing, I don't know what is.

Anyway, this is to all mghandbellers, especially the '06 choir.



We need to have another reunion soon!! But when I come back Jane will not be there right. ARGH. somehow we will have another reunion!!!

Stressing me out

The project for health science is stressing me out so badly because my group members don't know what they want to do. To make things worst, they are off doing their own things during group discussions and what we are working on really doesn't seem to make sense. Like I'm very sure we're going off topic. And to top things off, I have to research on the hardest part of the whole thing.

I'm tired. I just want to sleep. But the guilt of not spending enough time on this project is keeping me up. Not say I'm being productive staying up. But ya.

I'm really so stressed! Why can't I have a group that is more 'on' about it, who will contribute more ideas during discussions and who will actually do their work? WHY? I also need to learn to work well under pressure.

GAHH

Still

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hands

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

The chorus really represents my state of mind right now. 6th day into May and assignments, projects are all going to be due soon, not forgetting the fact that I have exams the following month. The more I think about it, the more overwhelmed I feel and I start to stress/freak out.

But like in my QT yesterday, it reminded me how God can speak to us in many many ways but there are quite a number of times that He chooses to do so in His still small voice. And I guess as I was stressing out the whole of this morning, God suddenly reminded to just calm down, and be still and know that He is God.

I.will.'survive'.first.sem.of.year.one.

Titanic - My Heart Will Go On - Piano Solo

This is my new favourite video. I think it would be so much nicer if they showed the pianist, but nevertheless, my heart melts each time I hear this.

Let's see

I have:

3 more online test
3 essays
1 group presentation
4 papers during exam

So much work!!!! Stressing me out only.