Yippee!! This is my 100th post! Wonder how old my blog is..

Anyway, I've a lot to blog about, but now it just depends on my stamina to stare at the screen and just type non stop. And hopefully my phone won't ring just yet, if not I'll get distracted. I shall colour code each 'topic', should be easier to read like that.

Ok. There are a few reasons why I'm blogging only now and not like right after all the events. Firstly, after OBS I was so super tired. I wanted to blog but I just couldn't stay awake. So like. I slept the whole night. I didn't even hear my phone ring like for 5 calls and about 3 sms. And my phone was at the loudest next to my ear. That's how tired I was. Then the next day, I had to do flag day. So I left the house early cos I wanted to hitch a ride. Then I went to make specs. I'll say why later. Then as usual, went to my grandparents' house and like every sat night, I need to prepare for the next day's worship. So ya. Then today after church I went to ps and watched over the hedge. Nice show. Yeah. And I was dying. Cos I had food poisoning. So like PAIN!!! and my brothers went to ps too. trust me. It's so not fun to look after them. Ok it was okok la. But still. I'M SUPER LAZY ONE LA! then I had to get my father to drive me home cos I could barely walk and then I slept cos I didnt' want to feel anymore pain. stomach pain. Yeah. So here I am now..

Yeah. OBS was super fun! I never thought it would be like this and initially I didn't even think I could actually survive it. So ya. This is how it all went.

First day
In the morning, I was so unprepared la. I was so worried that I didn't bring the necessary stuff. And my bag was so so heavy. So even in the morning, I was trying to make it lighter. I succeeded in making it slightly lighter la. But I was still very very unprepared. I remembered telling my mum that I didn't want to go even though I had been looking forward to it. And ya. (Since sooner or later everyone will find out, I shall add in this detail too). I even had to sms Gerald all the way to school telling him the things that needed to be completed for the intermediate camp(yes. we are planning the camp. I shall talk more about it later). Then when I reach school, I was like.. might as well just go and enjoy. So after assembly and all the admin, we boarded the bus and off we went. At the jetty, we were all like, "we just passed by the last of civilisation!" hahaha. then we took this ferry. There was one called symphony and another called harmony. And many more la. So I started being lame. But don't have to go into detail about that. Yeah. Then at OBS. It was something I didn't expect at all la. I expected something worst. Yeah. Then after many complications, the group I was in, the second half of my class, was given the name "Armstrong". Yeah. My instructor is Chiew Ling. we call her Ling though. Then we were given all our dry rations and canned food and rice which was suppose to last us la. It's a lot of food!! We packed like all of them after many many many trys! Then after that we found out that we didn't have to squeeze everything in the two small boxes! It was like AHHHHHH.......... ok. Then we went to our store where all the equipments were kept. and we learnt belaying. And at night we cooked our first meal. Yeah. (we are suppose to cook every dinner). And after that, a few of us just scrubbed the pots and mass tins. It was super tiring. And we pitched the last of our tents. (oh it rained that day. so our tents were wet inside. disgusting i tell you). and at night we slept in wet tents.

Second day
hmmmm.. let me think. what happened? oh ya. We rock climbed! Yeah. I reached the top. Hahahahha. I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then we had lunch. actually we ate the whole rock climbing thing. and we did it as a class la. Then we learnt the capsizing drill. Stupid drill I tell you. But good and useful. Ya then we went kayaking. And you know what. Before we even started Rachel and I capsized. Stupid I tell you. But good thing we were near the shore. Then it was easier to empty the kayak. then off we went and everyone had to capsize and rescue. Then when it was Rachel and my turn to capsize. guess what happened? My left lens fell out! retarded i tell you! like who but me experiences such stuff? so stupid! Then we went back. Ate and yea. That's about it for the second day i think.........

Third day
We went for an expedition that day! We had to pack this ultra heavy bag la. It had to like hold all our stuff. for two days. so like. Very heavy. Then we had to use this map and had some kind of treasure hunt. and we only found 2 points. Then because it was too late we had to go to our campsite. Then we pitched our tents. And we saw a BOAR!! hahaha. and we cooked yet again. ( wow I'm making obs sound boring. but it's not boring) and then washed our tins in the sea. then like we were given like schedules to do night watch. ya and in the night watch. MY night watch with amanda and rachel. WE SAW THE BOAR AGAIN!! we were so super scared la. and because i was so blind without my glasses. i was not sure of what i was looking at.and let me tell you this. All the rumours about ghost singing at night. SO NOT TRUE. it's just music by the instructors to scare the boar away.and it was techno music. but the lyrics were kinda weird. yeah. maybe that's why people thought it was ghosts. anyway. the male instructor shouted and made the music louder and I hope that the boar was scared away.

Fourth day
We had to wake up especially early that day because we had to leave early to kayak. We kayaked 7-8 hours. SO LONG! but it was ultra fun. FUN i tell you.Rachel and I got myany rides from the instructors because twice rachel needed to be attended to. the ride from the speed boats were fun. hahaha. our navigators kept on going zig zac.And after that we had to wash the equipments. I tell you. I was wet the whole day.

Fifth day
We just cleaned up the whole day. and had a lot of evaluation. Yeah. That's all la. ahhaa.. and i got sun burn trying to find tent pegs. but it worth it cos i found 2!!!(btw. I'm on the phone that's why i'm not elaborating so much) And i bought a OBS t shirt to remember the camp. I was so so happy to be home la.

OBS was fun la. But I think that there were many conflicts that started because of this camp. I was asked as a class chair to talk to the class about it. But what can I do? I really dunno what to do. I hope this doesn't go on...

And ya. As I said. Intermediate camp. Yes I'll confess that we ARE in fact having an intermediate camp. And ya. I'm going to say that I'm sure that we are progressing very well. And we are inviting all sec 1 to sec 3 to come. If you want to come for this camp which is from the 19th to the 21st of june. Monday to Wednesday. and it costs $25 (really cheap) and it includes a t shirt. It's at Foochow Methodist Church. Yeah. Really worth it. Once I can I'll post up the powerpoint and all the other stuff concerning the camp. So ya. I think that's about it. Just email me if you want to know the details and if you want the consent form. Yeah. You are all invited even if you're not from Foochow Methodist Church.

I'm really grateful for all these experiences. And i'm going to have to say this. I was asked why being a Christian is good. And during OBS I found out why. It's because you never have to worry about what's going to happen to you after you die. And if you are a Christian, you'll never feel alone. You'll always have someone to talk to when you feel down and depressed. Being a Christian lets you know that there is always a solution to every problem and that there is someone you can always count on. And this is something I must add. There's no poin in being a Christian by name and not behaving like one. Being a Christian means that you believe that Jesus died and rose again. That Jesus is Your saviour.

Oh well. I wanted to do more for my 100th post. but because my com is lagging so badly right now. I'll do it some other time. Yeah.

I don't want to come to school on my birthday. It's not because I don't want to celebrate with the handbell choir. But it's just that 1-10 is like so so long!!! That's retarded la. Miss Sim said at first from 2 to 4. not so bad. But now it's like 10 hours. I know I'll be disrupting the plans that you all have making, but I'm so so sorry. I really don't want to come. But on the other hand. I really love handbells and feel that I should not skip. AHH!! What should I do? I want to go and don't want to go at the same time. I wonder why they make us come for prac for so long. Seriously la. Can't they plan it in a proper way that we don't need to have such long practise hours. It's seriously retarded. In fact, they don't require it to be so long. Even if we have 2 run throughs, it shouldn't take 10 hours. 10 hours is simply crazy. Most probably we'll be talking and doing all the crap stuff most of the time. Such a waste of time. I can be doing so much more la.

OBS is just next week. OHH I'm not so prepared! But I'm looking forward to it just that it's coming too soon. It sure be very fun. When we return on friday, lao shi wants me to come for prac. Wonder if I should go. I know I'll be very tired. But handbells is fun. And I dunno if I should go for love mg after that.

Today in school, Miss Kek asked me to pray for the class. And I was asked to do the same thing in church. But both times I was too scared to do so. And so I started thinking. I'm a christian. Why should I be afraid of praying? Even if I sound weird, even if people laugh. I should still just pray. What they say is right, praying is a priviledge. And not say I'm talking to someone unapproachable. I'm talking to my God. Then why am I so afraid. I should not continue like this. I should just pray everytime I'm given the chance. I should not give up this chance to talk to God.

Yeah. Now I'm bored once again and I don't know what to do. I think I should just concentrate on my tv show. Hahaha

Tomorrow all the 'dead birds' will be revived. haha. This is a handbells joke. Come and listen to us to get the joke. Anyway. I can't wait for the sec fours to come back for prac. I can't wait for tmr. We are finally going to get a complete song, not some funny song with no tune. Like for the musicial song, without the sec fours, it sounds like a chinese song. So weird. And we are going to have another performance outside school. So FUN!! haha. Hopefully we wear something nicer.

Yeah. I dunno where to go for sabbaticals. So many places I want to go. In fact I want to go for all. But I want to go somewhere where my friends are going. No point going somewhere nice and no friends. Ok la. Sure can make friends. But I still want to have friends going.

Speaking of that. OBS! ahhh. Next week is OBS. And we're grouped like first half of the class and second half. I want Ya Ting to be in the same group as me. Surely more fun one. But sadly Mrs Cheong said cannot. So Sad la. Ya Ting you better be touched if you see this I tell you! Haiz. Now I dunno what's going to happen. Somehow I'm not looking forward to it. It's coming too fast.

Oh well. Better go study for tomorrow's test. And I want to sleep. HAHA

ok this is for the person who sits next to me which I'm very sure is Miss Hsing Ya Ting.

I've no idea what to blog on. I simply have no inspiration. But oh well.

OBS is just next week and somehow I'm not really looking forward for it. It's just that everything is going pass so fast and there's still a lot of things I want to do before OBS. haha. I sound as if I'm going to die. In a way I'm looking forward for OBS but I just don't want it to come so fast. I want to do many many things before OBS. And I really wonder how it'd be like. I wonder whether I'll miss home. I wonder whether I'll cry. Oh well.

Ok. I don't think I've anything else to blog on. A lot of things are confidential so cannot blog on it. so ya. that's all I've to say

Wow. I'm super super STRESSED! And the worst thing is that I can't say one of the reasons. But yes! There are many many other reasons too.

AHHHHHH... Some sunday school teachers told me that if I put up a worship roster, they'll check and make sure if it's their students turn to be part of the next week worship, they'll remind them. But they didn't do it for this week, and now I can't contact the two sec 1 girls, rachel and marilyn. DIE! I didn't want to get sec 3s to be involve in this week worship(they should know why) but if I really cannot contact the two girls, I have no choice. And on top of that, TOC is not producing results as fast as I need them to. I have no more energy to push you guys to do what you're suppose to do. Do me a favour and complete whatever you're suppose to do within the deadline. And I seriously need to find someone to take over me next year in the worship ministry. Sadly, no one will ever want this job. Which was quite a killer when I first started. But now it's like part of my daily life. Wonder who will volunteer in helping me take over...

School! Another source of stress. It's like work after work. Non stop madness. It's driving me nuts! Last year was like so slack compared to this year. Except for history and ART! Oh how I hated art. Hated it so so so much! I just cannot stand doing any of my art pieces. I could not be bothered on how it turned out la.

And for handbells. We are going to die next year if all the practises were like yesterday's. It was pathetic la. And I seriously cannot stand some people but what to do. And I DON'T WANT TO COME BACK TO SCHOOL ON MY BIRTHDAY! What's wrong with them? Why must we have a musicial practice on that day. I don't care. I don't want to come!

I want to go some where high up in the mountains where no one goes to and just scream.....

I dunno why I'm posting again, but I was just thinking. I realised that "I Not Stupid 2" is something we all can actually learn from.

They start off the show by asking when is the last time you praised someone? And that's true. When have we last praised someone for their good efforts? Or have we taken that person for granted? I know for me, once I've done something good, I like people to acknowledge it. I like people to come up to me and say hey. well done. Honestly for myself, I sometimes also find it hard to actually praise someone. especially if I don't like that person or I think that the efforts are not enough. But who am I to say that not enough efforts are put in? Who am I to say that I don't like a fellow brother or sister in Christ?

In the show they keep on saying this line. Don't look at his bad points, look at merits. And that's actually quite true. I know that I rather others to know what I'm good instead of looking at all my bad points and like not liking me because of it. And I just learnt, that by looking at only one's bad points, you can actually make a good kid turn bad. Everyone has talents, no one is talentless. True enough, it is easier to notice the bad points compared to the good points, but let's all challenge ourselves.

And just by praising someone or commenting on that person's good points can actually make a difference to that person's life. That person may be so touched that all the 'bad points' disappear. That person could be have been thinking of suicidal thoughts but a simple phrase like "good job" or "well done" could just change that person's life and the people around him forever.

So what are you waiting for? Go make a difference in someone else's life today!

I'm CONFUSED!

I NEED HELP!

Lord please help me..... I'm not sure of what to do. I dunno which path to follow, whether I should go on the path which I know is correct, or the one where I'll feel so much better even though it may be wrong.

ok so maybe I shouldn't have posted what I did in the previous post. But I seriously couldn't take it anymore. I was feeling so so much injustice. I tried seeing it from all your point of view even though until now I don't understand why you all think you know what i'm talking about. But since you all put it that way. I'm sorry but I can't understand all your actions. From the way I see it, both are at fault. so ya.

I've been thinking of an issue for quite a while and I dunno why I doubted myself. I told myself that I won't care whether I lose all my friends or not. I told myself that I know I'm doing the right thing. Why should I even worry? I prayed about it and told God about it. I know that He'll guide me throughout this whole thing.

Firstly I need to start of by saying that we seriously shouldn't judge. No matter what she's done to all of you, you all shouldn't say that's she's annoying and all. We are all not in the position to judge. What if you've judged wrongly. What if your judgement is wrong? How do you know that what you're saying about her is correct? Your version of bad may be another's version of correct.

Secondly, no one should ever rejoice over someone else's unhappiness. How can you be waiting for her to breakdown. How can you be anxious over the time where by she begs everyone for forgiveness. In fact, you all should be the one apologising to her. Instead of trying to help her, you all distant yourselves from her, neglecting her. The worst thing is that you don't even feel a bit of guilt. Don't you think you are going too far.

Thirdly, how can you ask me to try not to interfere. How can you expect me to just sit around and look at her being neglected by everyone. What if you were in her shoes? You would definately want someone to come to you and treat you nicely. I know I would. Ok, maybe I should put this in a different way. How can you ask me to only treat her nicely only after you all have made her hit rock bottom, breaking down?

You said that she requires soul searching. But after what you've told me, I think you need to do some soul searching too. "Do unto others what you want others to do unto you"

Think about it!