WOW! I'm seriously drained. Now I know why there are at least 3 people in the handbell committee. I can't believe I feel asleep upon reaching home. But partly is because I had to take medicine because of my flu. And the only reason why I'm up is because I want to watch Tv. Haha. I'm such a Tv addict. I wanted to watch the last espisode of the channel 8 show and Da Chang Jin and I also wanted to blog about today... HAHA

Yeah, today during recess, Lao Da placed the attendance book of my table giving Tracy the instructions on what I need to do. So ya. Not so bad I thought. Then lessons blah blah blah. So like after CME, I ran to find Tiffany to tell her that I had to meet Mrs Maggie Yeo for a while so she had to wait. And when I reached my classroom, I saw on the board "Monica go and find Lao Shi for the keys Now!". But because I had to listen to what Mrs Yeo had to say, I was like becoming ultra restless. Then after what seemed like forever, Mrs Yeo finally said that my group could leave. So I met Tiffany (the nice girl waiting for me outside my class) and told her that I had to find Lao Shi. So the both of us ran, with me and all my "Barang Barang"(all my items), to the staff room and Miss Sim helped us call Lao Shi out. And then I got a tiny lecture on being late. So I took the keys and the two of us ran to the handbell room to open the door. So like priscilla and petrina were all there la. So they waited for Mrs Aw inside there. Tiffany and I had lunch then we rushed back. Then Priscilla told me that they had no score. So I had to run to the music store to collect the scores with pris. Then she told me need to buy drinks for Mrs Aw, so I ran down with Tiffany to the canteen to buy the packet drink. We ran back, and my stupid cough started working up again. So couldn't breathe. Then I had to take attendance. WOW! I didn't know who was who. I was like counting and counting but there was something wrong with the figures. Then I found out that there was this girl's name not written down and I finally marked the attendance. So I went to play extra notes. And I started to get bored so I memorised the score and forgot to dam on the correct beat and was caught by Mrs Aw. So pai seh. And a few times somemore. HAHA. Oh well. At least everything is done. Actually I don't mind doing all these again. It's quite fun. And if there's ever a next time, I'll be mentally prepared.

Oh just to remind myself and to inform the other handbellers (i'll post this again in the handbell blog). On the 3th of June (Saturday), we are having a musicial rehearsal with like every other performer. Yeah. So must leave that day free and Lao Shi would confirm the other days where we have our own practises and the next full rehearsal. Yeah. And I need to get Miss Sim to photocopy about 8 more copies of the musicial score. Wonder if I should email her. Or ask her on tuesday recess. I think email better.

Yeah. Today was Miss Ng's last day. 3i actually agreed to be nice to her but Miss Ng like never appreciated it. I brought a gift for her and she like treated it like not very nicely. And at the end of the day when our whole class said thank you to her, she like didn't care. BUT nevermind. At least we played our part. Don't care her anymore. MISS TAN IS COMING BACK! I CAN'T WAIT!

And we had the prefect voting today. Yeah. I was told by some sec 4 that they voted for me. So thanks a lot.Thanks to all who voted for me. (I know this is quite ego. But must still say thank you right) Even though I have really mixed feelings about being a prefect nominee, I guess I'll only know God's plan once the results are out. Whether He wants me to be a prefect or not. Oh well. Whatever it is, I'm sure I'll still be happy. Oh and I hope that Cherilyn will be able to become a prefect. I know she's been wanting to be a prefect since sec 1. And she's been going through this prefect thing for like 3 years. For the past 2 years she's been like going all the way to the voting round. This system is bad in a way that you've got to be popular to get votes.

Yeah. That's all I've got to rattle about. Haha

My great grandmother passed away this morning, and to think that all these while, I never knew she was alive. The last time I saw her was when I was really really young. And somehow all I can remember is that my aunty said that she passed away. To think I've been believing the wrong thing for so many years. But the good thing is that, just a few years back, my great grandmother has recieved Christ into her life. So ya. I believe she's already in heaven.

That made me start thinking. Am I definately going to heaven? I say I'm a christian. But do I have the faith? Do I actually believe that Jesus is my Saviour? And the thing is that I don't know how to check. It's like. How do you actually confirm that you are a christian with a place in heaven..

Guess one way is to obey God. And that's what I really got to do. The fifth commandant said to honour my parents. And just today I made my mum upset. When I discovered she was angry, I suddenly felt sad and scared at the same time. I felt guilt rushing through me. Usually I would think that my mum is just being unreasonable. But now I know that I actually love my mum that I don't want her to be upset. That I don't want her to think that her daughter is someone beyond hope. I actually wanted to make my mum happy. And then I thought about it. So what if everyone calls me 'guai' and i'm the only one like that. Even though is such situations I may seem like the weird one, it doesn't matter. Because I know that when my parents are happy, I feel happy too. Maybe it's because I fear my parents. I'm afraid that I get scolded. But I guess this is a good fear.

I think this is the same fear I should have with God. I should fear Him. God loves me and I know it. I know that God will punish us for our sins. So ya.

What am I doing with my life? Why am I still sitting here doing nothing? I really need to discover my purpose in life on my own. I need to do something.

Like what we learn on friday. I'VE GOT THE POWER TO CHANGE THINGS.

ok. I've officially given up on trying to upload videos on my blog. I've tried many thousand ways but it doesn't work. I think I'll put the link here instead. But another time la. It's so annoying. I've been trying since easter sunday. Oh well. Maybe I'm not meant to put up videos.

5 weeks has already gone past since the march holidays. This means half the term is over. That's very fast la. Another 5 more weeks and it would be the june holidays. That's half the year. THAT SUPER FAST! WOW! This year is really speeding past. Everything is happening so quickly.

Yeah. I want to thank God for letting everything be good for me. I realise that I don't seem to have any complain about anything in my life like for the whole week. Usually I'll compare my life with someone else's and I'll feel upset if I don't have a certain thing and all. But I've been thinking. And I realised that I'm really satisfied with my life. Now is to have a new goal. And that's 1-4-U. Yeah. some program thing in sunday school la. Whereby we bring one friend to God. Yeah. As a christian, I think I should really leave my comfort zone.

(sorry for those who find this sensitive.) But yeah. God has placed me in an environment whereby there aren't as many christians as the past years of school. Yeah. Maybe He's like giving me this chance to reach out. Now I can't give any excuses. I have to at least play a part. I don't want to be unable to answer when I'm asked what have I done for God. I want to proudly say. I managed to do 1-4-U. Yeah. Guess one way I can do that is to be a better friend. Or someone who is always available. Someone who is ready to listen to anyone. Someone who can offer advice to those who need them. Someone whom others can trust.

I hope I can be that person.

God has given me so much. And I want to give Him something back. So yeah. I've a new goal to accomplish.

ahh. i don't know what to blog on. but this is just to update this blog of mine. yeah. hahah. oh well. when i get inspired then i'll come back again.

3 months I enjoyed my freedom of playing anything I wanted on the piano. 3 months I didn't have to practise regularly. This 3 months have come and went so quickly. To think that my mum actually found me another piano teacher which I had an 'audition' with today and yupp, she's going to be my new piano teacher.

It's not say I don't like piano. In fact, I love playing the piano. The one thing I don't like about it is the lessons. I don't like playing all the same pieces non stop. And to think that I could have actually finished my grade 8 if not for my teacher before this one.

Miss ** (in case I get sued. So I better just use ** as my teacher's name) was actually a really good teacher. In fact she was really fun and because she was young and so fun to talk to, I found that I could really relate with her and actually have fun during lessons. She was the teacher that made me actually love playing the piano. And recently, she got married and pregnant. So ever since, all she's been thinking of is her son. And I must say, that yes, all parents would want their children to excel in as many areas as possible, BUT she was making her son go for 'lessons' at a age is that is below 1. Hello? That's like mad. And she's trying to teach him the piano. Like how is that possible. Anyway, because of that. She started to get a bad habit of changing lesson timings last minute. And usually when one goes on a holiday, there would usually be planning. But apparently, she doesn't tell anyone about her plans and on the day itself, I have to go down to the school only to find out that she is not in Singapore. She should at least be more responsible la. So yupp. That's how I stopped piano. And since the november holidays, I never had a teacher.

So ya. My dear cousin just had to tell my grandmother who has been bugging me since to find a new teacher. And I finally got one. So in a way it's good la. I may just stop the minute I finish my grade 8 exam which I should be taking next year feb or march? Yeah

I told you all that the word was a good word! You see, even Miss Sim commented that we smiled naturally and why? It's because of that word. Hahaha. Oops, I means HAUHHH!!

Yeah. Handbells was really fun. It helped me to get my mind of things that I didn't want to think of. Unhappy stuff. A particular event that took place today which I found rather unreasonable. Yeah.

THANK GOD FOR MAKING HANDBELLS PERFORMING GROUP '06 SO SO FUN!

I think I've fallen in love with handbells. Actually I don't think, I know I've fallen in love with the Mg Handbells Performing Group '06. (Btw. I think we should get another name. Mg handbells '06 is rather long. ) All the fun and laughter we have just makes me look forward for the next practise and I really don't want all these to end. How I wish that this year wouldn't pass by so fast so that the sec fours wouldn't have to leave and beginners have to come up. Don't think wrongly, it's not that I don't want anyone to get promoted but I just find this group really really fun. Which other cca can have as much fun as us? Wow. To think that in sec 1 I was rather reluctant to come for cca and almost even regretted joining. Good thing I had friends who made my 'stay' in handbells ok which leads to the overwhelming happiness I'm experiencing now.

The trip to Japan in November would surely be very fun cos the whole crazy choir is going or at least I think everyone is going. OHHH I can't wait!

And remember. The trick to be able to smile naturally is to say this one special word. And this word is non other than HAUHHH!! (To understand this you've to be in handbells)

HANDBELLS IS SO SO FUN!!

Friday and Saturday has been so so fun and being in the handbells performing group '06 has really made is much much better. For those two nights all we did was mainly laugh and laugh, forever doing touchup, taking photos, getting ultra high and doing the weirdest things possible.

To think that when I first joined the performing group I thought that we all would never be so close but I was so so wrong. When I first joined, I was like didn't dare say anything cause I found a lot of people weird. But now, all I hear is us talking rubbish non stop. Haha. And our choir snacks and gossips everytime we have nothing to do. Haha.

HAUHHHHHHH!!!!

This is a very good word to make you smile naturally. Remember Yun Jing aka Mrs Huang Li Hong.. If you want to smile. You've to say that word to yourself. Haha. And I'm so going to put that word on the handbells notice board. Yeah

YEAH. Finally settled down after coming home.

EXPRESSO WAS SO SO SO FUN!!!

ok. after all the briefing, priscilla, tiffany and rui jun came over to my house to bathe and then we went to school. sat down like weirdos and started doing our makeup. haha. we were so weird doing it la. cos we had very limited time. then we rushed of for dinner which was not too bad. so ya. went to the mep room 1 after that.

and as usual. we had to touch up our makeup. trust me. we did that many many times. and we started neatening our hair. we had to all follow the same style. yeah. then we entertained ourselves by first taking photos. then eating (btw. the mg handbells choir is forever found eating and talking non stop. and most importantly. we laugh non stop. don't think that just because we are in a performing art we cannot get good toned muscles. we can k.) then we played with the chimes and ya. after a long long while we finally were called to be on standby.

ya. so at backstage. I was ultra ultra nervous. but the minute i started walking to my bells. i started hearing friends shouting my name. I was SO SO EMBARRASSED LA. then i tried to ignore them and ya. i was waiting for lao da--sandra to start the whole thing cos the first song is very tiring for the bass which i was playing in. yeah. the song went really well. both of them. and everything went really well.

then back at the room. we had an evaluation because dear yun jing just had to suggest one. haha. so ya. then after that i was teaching the choir the dance i made for the song 'broadway'(our second song).. hahah. it was indian based (sorry for being a bit racist) and ya. i can't believe the whole choir actually wants to learn it. haha. then i was teaching them the tracy whine that went HAUHHHH. hahaha. it was really really funny. and everytime someone said something negative to us. we would go HAUHHH. actually i think i was the only one doing that. but we all laughed and laughed and laughed. oh. rui jun and i thought of the post we should have at curtain call and it's really cool. i'll try to upload pictures of it. haha. actually the process of choosing the post was more fun.

so basically all i have to say is. MG HANDBELLS ROCK!!! yeah. especially once you've close bonds with your fellow performers and are able to crack jokes like the performing group '06. hahaa. can't wait for the japan trip. i think it would be so so so fun.