reminiscing

As the year draws to an end, thoughts just start racing through my mind. So many things too place this year.

School
Basically, a whole year of non stop studying for O levels.
I got to know my friends and teachers so much better.
LOOONGEST DAY!
120th founder's day!

Handbells
SYF! Where we got GOLD!!
PASSIONE!
Not many performances though

Church
The first year in intermediate whereby I didn't do any organising for worship ministry.
The really eventful and fruitful mission trip

Ok at the moment I can't think of anything.. I shall edit this when I remember more stuff.

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So anyway, today was like the sec 4 graduation in intermediate. And as the programme was running, I started reminiscing. It has been a good four years in intermediate. It started with us all being really quiet and shy, not wanting to be part of anything. Give us a few weeks and soon we were involved in different ministries.

Give thanks to God for Kui Luan who organised our first class bbq which made us closer to each other.

Wow. To think that 4 years just zipped by so quickly. I'm so glad to been involved in intermediate. Playing an active role in the worship ministry was something I benefitted a lot from. Firstly, I had the opportunity to serve God in something that I enjoyed doing. Yeah I found it tough, but at the same time, I really enjoyed doing it. Secondly, I got to make more friends while trying to find musicians. Thirdly, I get the satisfaction of seeing other people wanting to serve. and many more..

I'm really glad how TOC has grown together. We started off with the horrible red sea. Yet, we grew close to each other really quickly. And even though we're all going to move on together, well at least most of us, to youth, I can't help but feel that I'm never going to see them again. Ok I kinda know why I feel like that. But that's besides the point. So ya. I'll never forget all those wonderful times we spent together as a level. I hope that no matter what, we'll always still hang out!

oh and THANK YOU GOs SO MUCH FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL PROGRAMME AND SUCH COOL TROPHIES!!

sweet sixteen

HAHA. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN ONCE MORE GERALD!! HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOURSELF!!! and admit it, you were surprised!!!! and most importantly, didn't get the chance to suspect something was going on.. Which means that the surprise was a success!!!! haha. Ok, I'm still kinda sleepy.

oh and wherever you are Julien, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN IN ADVANCE!

I'll edit this post later on. haha. When I have more energy to

Merry Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL!

So as to brighten the rest of your holidays. Let me share some stuff I found funny. haha. These are from this book called 'you ask about... relationships', the Q and A section. It belongs to my brother which he received from sunday school.

Q: I met this guy, and he's just like nobody else. I mean, the way he just, you know, makes me feel when he's around? Ooh! Ooh! Dougie's like, oh I don't know, you know?
A: Honestly I don't have the slightest idea what you are talking about
HAHHAHAHA! SO FUNNY LA! okok, must read the next one

Q: I met this girl, and wow. She's got this way, well, I can't stop thinking about her. I mean, uh, I get all funny-feeling. You know?
A: Not really. But, by any chance, is your name Dougie? No matter how nice she is, stop sending me your poetry. "Geometry" and "go with me" don't really rhyme, anyway.
HAHAHAH! I'M SO TICKLED BY THIS TWO!!

Friends are friends forever

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes he's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

CHORUS:
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "Never"
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

This is a beautiful song.

Friends Forever

How many times have we actually taken the words 'forever friends' or 'friends forever' for granted? Some may even taken a step further and go 'Best friends forever'. Please don't get me started on bffn.

So ya. I realised that the words friends forever can easily roll off my tongue and that I've been taking it for granted. I don't think I really meant it at that time. Those two words seemed so easy to be said, that when people said it to me, it never really affected me in any way.

And now, it hit me on how those two words are very precious indeed. How those two words can produce the sweetest melody to the ear. How life changing this can when someone goes up to you and say, 'hey! (best) friends forever yeah?'

I no longer want to take any friends for granted. I no longer want to take for granted all the precious time I have with my friends and family.

And so, if I ever tell you friends forever in one of my cheesy moments, bear in mind that I really mean it.

I can feel it slowly slipping out of my hands.







p.s. I'm not feeling emo, or upset. This was just some random though I suddenly had. haha.

Good Old Memories

How I wish I can just turn back time and re-live those good old days.

Leaving is going to be impossible

If I have to leave, I'm so going to miss you...

Sound illusion

Hey all!

Go to this link http://www.firyx.net/ and see the video on the sound illusion. And then, read whatever ryan typed, watch the video and comment on either my blog or ryan's blog. yeah.

random quizzes

this is how bored I am..

Your Expression Number is 8

Driven and ambitious, you have the potential to reach great things. You're both good with money and good at getting things done quickly. You are an excellent leader and a great judge of character. Full of energy and confidence, you undertake projects that seem impossible. Dependable and determined, you are able to understand the bigger picture. Even if you are not in a position of power right now, it will fall to you. At times, you can be very materialistic - and obsessed with status and power. While this isn't always a bad thing, you sometimes take it to the extreme. In order to be truly happy, you must balance the material and spiritual in your life.

What's Your Expression Number?

It's kinda amazing how by just giving my name, they can come up with this. I so wonder how true this is.. haha.

Pepperoni Pizza

Robust and dominant. When you go for something, you go full force. You tend to take control of situations easily. And in return, you get a ton of respect.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

and this is making me hungry

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are lively, dramatic, and flamboyant. You have an outrageous personality... And you secretly resent anyone who makes you tone it down. Underneath it all, you are driven by your need for attention and acceptance. You need to feel special at all times. You are secretly jealous and occasionally insecure.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

hmm. I dunno how true this is

You Are Great With Money

You know the value of a dollar - and you save and spend wisely. By living below your means, you've set yourself up for a rich future. And while it may hurt to sacrifice now, you'll probably have plenty of money later on. You're on your way to riches - just keep it up.

Are You Good With Money?

yay yay! I want to be able to save loads and loads of money!!

I miss..

I miss 4i '07
I miss my teachers (Miss Tan and Miss Kek were really funky form and co-form teachers!!)
I miss mg
I miss the cheap canteen food

And to think that we're all moving on to the next phase of our lives. Time really flies..

how about you?

Just a random thought.

How will you all feel if I actually have to go Australia? Like true true feelings.. Whether it's good or bad.

and seriously, all that you've done is really a lot. You've no idea how much I thank God for a friend like you.

not in the mood

I'm not in the mood for anything. What happened to my no more emo deal with myself?

As a matter of fact. For reasons unknown

I feel depressed

I feel like I'm drifting away. Away from everyone.

Take control

Jesus Take The Wheel
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

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I hate letting my thoughts run wild
I hate it when I feel like I'm all alone even though I know otherwise
I hate it when you don't seem to care
I hate all these stupid moodswings
I hate going through all these
I hate putting on this false front
I hate it when I'm this childish.

I feel like my life is in a mess and I really need You to take control of my life. I'm at a lost and I really need help.

Mission trip experience

Ok I would have given a day to day account of what happened in mission trip. But then I decided that, nahh..

I'll just share on what I feel and learnt from the trip.

Firstly, I must say that I was really blessed. I lost my voice before the activities actually started and that was not a very good sign, considering the fact that I was supposed to be a group leader, leading small children around in games. Which means I would actually need my voice. And why I say I was blessed. Well it's because God really looked after me. He gave me sufficient voice each time during all these activities to be able to lead the group. He gave me the voice each time I needed to talk to get my own teens group to do something for me. And on top of that, He ensured that I could find someone to help me convey the message each time my voice was about to go. Plus, I had friends who would ensure that I didn't eat too much oily stuff and didn't talk so much. How blessed am I?

Secondly, I saw how God actually uses us all to play a part in getting people to join His Kingdom. Both young and old, He uses all. All you need to do, is to be willing to serve. One really good example I believe is Gim. A young sec one boy who has a really good heart. When I was struggling to start new games for the people arriving, he just came up and started helping me. Yeah he came up with his own funny little games, but still, he managed to engage the children very well, and you could actually see that they really enjoyed playing games with him. During the christmas parties that we held for the children, he even went all the way out to help and started sharing. He was required to do anything like that. And yet, his heart was so prepared to serve God. It was actually kinda touching. Ok, I got to admit that sometimes I find him a bit of a queer. But I have never seen someone serving wholeheartedly, all the more, someone of his age. It makes me question myself, why do I actually do all that I'm doing. Is it for God's glory or for my own glory?

Thirdly, I really learnt about teamwork. There is really no 'I' in teamwork. No matter how small one's role seem, if everyone didn't play their part to the best of their abilites, the whole trip wouldn't have been possible. In the christmas party, with everyone really doing their best, the harvest was amazing. Out of about 247 children who came for the parties, 174 of them accepted Christ, about 25 of them expressed interest to learn more about Jesus. Seriously, God has worked wonders. All those simple acts that everyone contributed to has led to such wonderful stats. Praise the Lord!

If there are any more opportunities to do such stuff, I want to be included! Makes me feel more meaningful.

Well, I think I'll just end here. I may come back to edit this post, or not. Oh well. I shall end with the song, Fill my eyes. It was our theme song this year.

Fill my eyes
Fill my eyes, O my God,
with the vision of the Cross
Fill my heart with love for Jesus,
the Nazarene
Fill my mouth with your praise
Let me sing to endless days
Take my will,
let my life be wholly Thine

Use my hands to SERVE You God
EXPOSE my eyes to what You see
Make me LEARN from what You lay
before my path
I’ll be FAITHFUL to Your Great Commission
And I am blessed by Your Faithfulness
Take my will,
let my life be wholly Thine

May I always remember this meaningful song..

back!

Ok I'm back from mission trip.

And I could start rattling about it now, But I shan't. I rather talk to people now.

So yeah. Till next time :)

Mission Trip

Mission trip is tomorrow!

I don't know why. But suddenly I'm really excited. Well, I kinda like doing such stuff, so maybe that's why.

My dad ever once told us all that the devil would work overtime. To try his very best to make sure this whole thing doesn't succeed. And well, through a few events, you can really see him trying hard. But the more he tries, the more we'll fight on!

One of the problems the teachers are facing. Kui Luan won't be able to join us tomorrow. She'll only be coming down on wednesday I think. So all the things that are supposed to be put in the car are left 'stranded'. But after a discussion in Gloria's house. Haha. (of all places), they finally came up with a solution. Which is great. But I know that there are still many things unsettled. That are causing all of them a lot of stress.

Teachers are falling sick. Work load is piliing up for all of them.

But God will bless us all. And this trip would be made meaningful. A chance for us to all step out of our comfort zone, to serve with all our ability.

I better make sure my heart is set right..

Oh and I'll be gone from tomorrow to the 10th. So PLEASE PLEASE don't call me. Messaging me is fine. But I'll only respond to those that are really really important. Yeah. If it's not so impt, then you can just drop me an email. my email address is myharmonica@msn.com

toodles..

home alone

I always thought being home alone would be fun.

I always pictured myself enjoying my freedom. Being able to do anything I want to do. And even though I get to do anything now, it just doesn't seem right. Fret not, I'm not going to do anything that's wrong.

As I waved goodbye to my mum and brothers, and all my other relatives. It just felt weird. This weekend it would just be my dad and I. Super weird. I kinda miss my brothers. Hmmm.

And now the question is, what am I going to do. I'm so bored at home I'm willing to do anything. Hmmm.

one more belt..

Tomorrow my brothers will be going for their black belt taekwondo exam.

So I started thinking. It would have been so cool if I had actually not quit taekwondo. I'll most probably be taking the exam with them. It's so not cool to say I'm only a red belt (even though it's only one belt away from black). And because I'm 16, if I pass, I'll be a black belt. My brothers, being below 16, only can junior black.

And so you may ask, why did I quit.

I quit because my love for handbells and piano was much greater. I had practises non stop in the june holidays last year, plus I had to prepare for my piano exam. With all that, I found myself too tired to actually continue taekwondo. There were many times when handbells practises ended late in the night, and I could not afford to pay for taekwondo lessons that I did not have time to attend.

So, I don't really regret it. But it would be so cool to actually continue doing it. Then again. I'm too lazy. All that training again is just going to make me sore.. one more belt........ .

Nevermind, I'll be satisfied to be a red belt.. Worst come to worst, I'll just get myself a black belt and live in denial. haha

and no, I don't do flying kicks. Nor will I do a demo for anyone.. hahaha. Unless you bribe me well

and the question is. Shoud I go down to see my brothers, or go to church.. hmmmmm. HOW HOW HOW

I got this off someone's blog. And all I can say is, WOW

Your best friend falls in love
and her brain turns to water.
You can watch her lips move,
making the customary sounds,
but you can see they're merely words,
flimsy as bubbles rising
from some golden sea where she
swims sleek and exotic as a mermaid.

It's always like that.
You stop for lunch in a crowded
restaurant and the waitress floats
toward you. You can tell she doesn't care
whether you have the baked or french-fried
and you wonder if your voice comes out in bubbles too.

It's not just women either. Or love
for that matter. The old man
across from you on the bus holds
a young child on his knee;
he is singingto her and his voice is a small boy
turning somersaults in the green
country of his blood.
It's only when the driver calls his stop
that he emerges into this puzzle
of brick and tiny hedges. Only then
you notice his shaking hands, his need
of the child to guide him home.

All over the city
you move in your own seasons
through the seasons of others: old women, faces
clawed by weather you can't feel
clack dry tongues at passersby
while adolescents seethe
in their glassy atmospheres of anger.

In parks, the children are alien life-forms, rooted
in the galaxies they've grown through
to get here. Their games weave
the interface and their laughter
tickles that part of your brain where smells
are hidden and the nuzzling textures of things.

It's a wonder that anything gets done
at all: a mechanic flailsat the muffler of your car
through whatever storm he's trapped inside
and the mailman stares at numbers
from the haze of a distant summer.

Yet somehow letters arrive and buses
remember their routes. Banks balance.
Mangoes ripen on the supermarket shelves.
Everyone manages. You gulp the thin air
of this planet as if it were the only one you knew.
Even the earth you're
standing on seems solid enough.
It's always the chance word, unthinking
gesture that unlocks the face before you.
Reveals the intricate countries
deep within the eyes.
The hidden lives, like sudden miracles, that breathe there.

time flies

Exactly one year ago, I was on the way to Japan with mghandbells '06. By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN JING!

How time really flies..

It really seems like in a blink of an eye, everything just zoomed by. It seems rather impossible how everything just zipped by. To think that I've actually completed my secondary school education and 10 whole years in mg. All those times spent there, to think that it's all over.

Sec 3 and sec 4 really flew by. I am so grateful to have such wonderful teachers who actually saw me through this year and the year before. They were always encouraging me to never give up and they brought smiles and laughter to me. Class would have never been the same without them.

My dear 4i '07. I know you must really have wondered why you actually chose me to be your class chairman. I guess you just didn't really know us at that time. But yeah, I'm glad to have you people as classmates, no matter how stressed you all make it. Well, be glad, now you'll never have to listen to me chasing you for forms. And a piece of advise, you all have to learn how to pay attention to what your teacher says, because, you won't be able to ask me what your teacher says anymore. YAY ME! But I must say, upper sec wouldn't have been as great without you people.

Handbellers oh handbellers '06 was legendary and that will never change. '07 yeah performing with you guys was a bit more stressful. But nevertheless, it was wonderful performing with you. Please don't torture tiffany and priscilla and be obedient yea? If I come back and I see you all torturing poor tiffany and priscilla, well, I'll be really disappointed. (I decided not to say exactly what I'll do)

Well. I'm not in the mood to continue this post. Till another time

There! I said it!

the long bus ride

I enjoy long bus rides. It gives me the chance to think things through especially when my mind is just in a blur.

Today I came to this conclusion - I've yet to grow up.

I remembered once that I told a friend, there's always two ways to look at things. You could look at things from a positive aspect or from a negative aspect. And needless to say, looking at the positive aspect is better. Yet, I don't practise what I preach. For the past few days, I've been what people could describe as 'emo'. After thinking through, I realised, feeling 'emo' was just an excuse I've been using. Truth to be told, I was just being negative the whole time. I didn't even bother to even try to look at the positive side of things. Feeling negative, at that point of time, seemed like the easiest thing. Then it hit me. I'm such a blessed girl and that I should be counting my blessings instead of thinking of what I don't have. I mean like, if Jesus could be so positive even though the world seemed to be against Him, and if I want to be like Him, shouldn't I also start thinking positive.

True, not everything may go my way. Yet, I have decided no more nonsense from me. And I apologise if I have pulled a black face in front of any of you. Monica shall no longer give any more nonsense.

I want to be a person, that when people look at me, they know I'm a christian through the way I carry myself. And how am I going to be able to be like that, if I think that being 'emo' is fine. Monica should never be allowed to be 'emo'.

After much consideration, I think I'll just take a leap of faith. And it's not going to be easy.

Lord please give me the strength and courage

Freedom

In a matter of hours, I'll be free!!

Free from this torture! No more O Levels.

I can imagine them saying stop writing at 430 and this really wide wide grin will be found across my face, provided the paper is do-able.

Oh yay! No more exams! It was such a torture to be studying throughout the whole weekend. That long 4 days long weekend.

FREEDOM! I can already taste the freedom.

The countdown is getting lower...

They ain't heavy

I think it's so funny how Brendan actually manages to look like that monkey on his shirt. If Ian was more awake, this photo would have been funnier. But oh wells.

They ain't heavy, cos they're my brothers..




I thought you were my friend :(

Testify To Love

All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope in every heart will speak what love has done.

Am I ready?

Mission trip is coming, in less than a month.

Am I willing to make sarcifices to live up to expectations? Am I going to cause a lot of trouble or be the one who helps out and makes life easier for others? Am I going to show that I'm a christian through the way I behave? Am I going to be significant or sucessful?

What am I going there for? What am I trying to achieve out of this trip?

Till I can come up with satisfactory answers, I dare not say I'm mentally ready for the trip.

This year is going to be different, that I promise You Lord.

Bored without a cure

This is bad. This is very very bad.

It's not even the holidays for me and I'm already BORED! Like I'm done studying and now I feel like I'm just wasting my time. Ok maybe when I'm officially having my holidays I'll be able to go out and stuff, so time won't be wasted. If not I'll definitely work or something. And I pictured the holidays to be more magical meaningful. Today (even though I'm not having any holidays) feels so wasted. Once again, if only I ended my papers today. Then I'll most probably be either freezing in the hall or rejoicing. Anything but feel bored and meaningless.

Maybe I should play the piano. NAHH. I'm too lazy for that. Come to think of it. I have no idea how I want to spend my holidays. Which means that most probably I'll be wasting time. And that isn't the best of plans. I don't think I can be going out everyday can I? And even if I do, I'm sure that after a while I'll just be bored of doing that.

Mission trip oh mission trip. If only you would come earlier and last longer. I seriously can't wait for it. Even though we're going to only Melaka. Ok, there's nothing wrong with going there. I rather not take a plane anyways. haha. Planes and Monica just don't go well together. Not at all. This time, I will go, knowing what I want to do - serving with all my heart. To do everything joyfully without any complains. Honestly, I think chances that I accomplish that is rather low, but still, that's my goal and I'm going to try to achieve it. If I actually managed to hit my target of saving a certain amount of money every month, plus do qt, (which I've been struggling to do for the longest time), I'm sure I can do this. JIA YOU ME!!

Oh well. Now to find something more meaningful to do, or at least someone to disturb. haha.

Changes

As I end a chapter of my life and start a new one, I thought I should change my blogskin as well.

So many things are going to change. The school I'm going to attend, the classmates I'm going to have, the new surroundings (no more shelter from mg), and loads more...

Ok, technically I am still having O Levels, but I just couldn't resist changing my blogskin. I had the other one for such a long time, and I decided it was time for a change. To think that my third week of exams are over. Now only left next monday, chem and physics paper 1 and I'll be done with this major exam. WOW

Don't worry, I'm not going to start recollecting all my memories. At least not now. Must wait for that significant moment.

Decisions after decisions are going to have to be made. Just pray that I've the wisdom to make the correct ones. These decisions are life changing decisions? One mistake and I'm going to regret it for life.

And ok, I guess it doesn't really matter how many people know. Should I go overseas, Australia, after this like for education or should I just stay in Singapore. I seriously seriously seriously need some advice. Like pros and cons. I'm going mad.. And I want to keep all my friends. I know if I leave, I'll most probably lose every other friend I have. And I dont' really want that to happen. Sigh. HELP!!!

Oh well. You are entitled to just marvel at my blogskin. haha.

Oh and I recommend you all to watch the Game Plan. NICE SHOW!

Guide to flying

Monica's guide to fly (or feel like you're flying)
works better for those who are wearing spectacles

1. Go to a nice spectacles shop (Mr Eyewear at West Mall is real good and efficient)
2. Get your eyes checked
3. Pray really really hard that your degree has changed (good excuses to get new frames)
4. Choose a nice pair of frames
5. Make your specs
6. Put on new specs
7. Now you'll feel like you're flying (so flap your wings..)

haha. I've nothing better to do in my life. And I just made a new pair of specs! YAY! Today's outing just proves how that stupid stupid Ming Ming Spectacle Shop has been cheating me. How can he not know that degree can drop! HMPH! My short sightedness improved!! YAY!! But my astige (however you spell it) went up.. No wonder I've been having such bad headaches.Sigh. I'll never get to wear contact lens at this rate. But oh well. Maybe if my short sightedness improve again, I can get new specs!! And I got my specs in half an hour. This guy is seriously efficient and very detailed in his work! I rate him 10 upon 10!!!

Two weeks of O Levels over! a big big wow!! I can't believe that it's going by so quickly. So I'm left with SS, Lit, Geog 1, Chem 1 and Physics 1. I am so NOT excited for the results, even though I thought the papers were all rather ok. But then again. Recieving results are never fun. Two more weeks. 4 days of which there's a paper. And then I can rejoice!!

Then again. I don't really want it to end. Then I'll have to leave the shelter of Mg. Have to start making all those life changing decisions.

Have faith in Him my friend.

The Lord's baseball game

Wow! The first week of O levels is like OVER!! To think it went by so quickly. Seriously thank God for helping me and everyone else through this.

JIA YOU PEOPLE! 2-3 more weeks!!

THE LORD'S BASEBALL GAME

Freddy and the Lord stood by to observe a baseball game. The Lord's team was playing Satan's team.

The Lord's team was at bat, the score was tied zero to zero, and it was the bottom of the 9th inning with two outs. They continued to watch as a batter stepped up to the plate named 'Love.' Love swung at the first pitch and hit a single, because "Love never fails."

The next batter was named Faith, who also got a single because Faith works with Love.The next batter up was named Godly Wisdom. Satan wound up and threw the first pitch. Godly Wisdom looked it over and let it pass: Ball one. Three more pitches and Godly Wisdom walked because he never swings at what Satan throws.

The bases were now loaded. The Lord then turned to Freddy and told him He was now going to bring in His starplayer. Up to the plate stepped Grace. Freddy said, "He sure doesn't look like much!"Satan's whole team relaxed when they saw Grace. Thinking he had won the game, Satan wound up and fired his first pitch......... To the shock of everyone, Grace hit the ball harder than anyone had ever seen! But Satan was not worried; his center fielder let very few get by.

He went up for the ball, but it went right through his glove, hit him on the head and sent him crashing on the ground; the roaring crowds went wild as the ball continued over the fence . . for a home run!

The Lord's team won!

The Lord then asked Freddy if he knew why Love, Faith and Godly Wisdom could get on base but couldn't win the game. Freddy answered that he didn't know why.

The Lord explained, "If your love, faith and wisdom had won the game, you would think you had done it by yourself. Love, Faith and Wisdom will get you on base but only My Grace can get you Home: 'For by Grace are you saved, it is a gift of God; not of works, lest any man should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9

Psalm 84:11,For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord will give grace and glory; no good things will He withhold from those who walk uprightly."

I just happened to chance upon this and it made me realise that I won't be able to go through this whole thing alone. That I really need God to bring me through this. I must make a mental note, that it's only by God's grace that I can actually do all these papers.

My new favourite phrase, Do your best and let God do the rest!:)

Have faith

oh me of so little faith, learn how to let go and just let God.

O Levels is starting in just a few hours. Throughout my ten years in mg, I never thought this day would come so soon..

Let every step/decision I make, be made in You

O Levels schedule

ok. I managed to sneak online. So I decided to put up my exam schedule. yeah. I can't believe that it's actually my turn to take O Levels. That I'm actually part of the graduating class of 2007. Time really really flies..

22nd Oct - Add Maths 1
23rd Oct - Add Maths 2
24th Oct - Chemistry 2
25th Oct - Geography 2
29th Oct - English 1, 2 and Maths 1
30th Oct - Maths 2
31st Oct - Chinese 1, 2
02nd Nov - Physics
05th Nov - Social Studies
06th Nov - Literature elect
07th Nov - Geography 1
12th Nov - Chemistry 1 and Physics 1

and that after that freedom. once again I'll talk more about this another time. Prayers are most welcomed!!

dead

MY POOR POOR BLOG!! Why oh why is it so so dead?

Sigh. 2 weeks to O levels. I can't believe it. It seems like just yesterday when I was in sec one, or even p1. entering MGS. And to think that I'm actually going to leave it soon. I'm going to miss MGS! I don't care what other people think of the school and of the teachers. I'm going to miss every part of mg like crazy. I'm so glad that I got the chance to be a mg girl! Ok I'm not going to start on this yet. I'll do it after O levels..

yes O levels. I can't believe it's going to be my turn soon. Now there's no time for mistakes. I know I haven't reached my potential in prelims and so I shall perform my best this time round. sigh.. the pressure.....

I'm scared. I'm freaked out. I need more time. I've so much homework and papers to finish. I'm going crazy!!

Ok. that's all for now. I think I'll put up my exam dates one day. till then..

tata for now

ok. This may be my last post for a very very long time.

Now it's high gear all the way till after O levels. Ok maybe I'll come online one day to update all my exams date. But till then, so long, farewell!

Sigh, there are so many things I want to blog about. But oh well, you can just call me or something. It's more fun to hear it from my wonderful voice. hahaha. I just can't help being egoistic

Making a difference

Making a difference

This is the video that would be playing during Sunday School Sunday, but I decided that it was too good and hence decided to share it. Lucky for me it could be found in youtube.

In short, it's about how this teacher learn how to teach and in the process made a difference in a child's life.
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Many a times, we always think that it is very hard to make a difference. Sometimes we are even afraid that the people we try to reach out to may just shun us and hence we decide to just not do anything.

But we never actually considered that one simple action could actually make a big difference in someone's life.

"You can never tell what type of impact you may have on another's life by your actions... or lack of action "

So what are you waiting for. Go out and make a difference in someone's life today!!

I want to be able to make that difference in your life. Now the question is, are you willing to let me do so?

Privacy needed

I miss those times when my blog was so so unknown to the whole world. When this was one of my ramblings outlets and that I didn't have to care who looked at it cos most probably it wouldn't affect them.

Now I got to be careful of what I say. Not saying I've anything bad but ya..

Sometimes I just need to be able to pour out all my feelings and stuff. And I dunno...

I'm such a 'tiring' friend. Especially for those who have to hear my complains. I need to find another way to release all these 'energy'

Gosh I'm beginning to sound emo.

Am I doing the correct thing?

SYF performing arts dinner

Yeah today was a really fun day. The highlight was the SYF dinner thingy and you can see all the nicer photos below. haha. I also attended the commendation award thingy. I WAS THE 287TH person! can you imagine how long I had to wait??

Anyway, here are the photos. Some are really retarded. But oh well. Might as well have fun right?

So enjoy..

this hat is seriously cool. the candles can light up!

3 of us, all smiles and ready to go party!

yay! finally, a photo with Davina

cool earrings huh?

I am supposed to be learning how to counter my fears, hence that stupid bird is on my head. YES I'M TERRIFIED OF BIRDS!!

what is that bird doing on MY shoulder
Joy, Tiffany and Monica
why can't anyone understand I don't like birds?
Finally got rid of the bird!
I was trying to take photo with Priscilla eating. she had food all over her face

princess monica is sad that rui jun is stoning at her food and not smiling ( I look like some young kid throwing a tantrum. gosh!)

princess monica is sad that tiffany puts eating before her

they still don't understand how much I don't like birds group photo 1
group photo 2
group photo 3

Cute group photo

Joanne seriously does weird stuff

Isabel, Huiying, Tiffany and myself

Miss Sim, Rui Jun, ME and Tiffany

(for tiffany to take)

When I finally get to take a photo with rui jun, I had to close my eyes! What is Joanne doing behind us? I think Tiffany was confused between happy and sad. haha

I have no idea what Joanne is doing behind us

the school can actually look quite scary. (ok it looked scarier in the camera)

that's Tiffany under the paper bag

teo, chan and lee:)


Yeah today was SO SO FUN! I love today!

Tomorrow is teachers' day. and since I had no time to do anything. I have decided to just give them something next time. Too bad! Maybe I won't even give. But it makes me feel so so weird!

Grade 8 Piano Exam Results

Oh great!

I worked so so hard for the stupid piano exam, which I know I messed up. But come on, A PASS? I should recieve a bit more credit! Gosh!

Ok, I knew I shouldn't have been expecting a distinction because of my hands slipping when I played the scales. But shouldn't my pieces have pulled my marks up? Come to think of it, HOW MUCH WEIGHTAGE DOES THOSE STUPID SCALES CARRY?

SO SAD OK!

Now I don't know if I want to continue taking piano. I don't think I can handle anymore of such disappointments. But then again, I really miss playing it. Oh wait. Maybe I don't..

But that's so not the point. How can like that. I should at least have a pass that's close to a merit. I think I better go get the report from my teacher and read it first before I continue complaining. SIGH!

Note to anyone who is going to take piano exam:

1. Wipe your hands dry
2. Wipe the keys dry
3. Do not panick at all cost
4. Don't ever give up before, during or even after the exam

Seriously. If not you'll regret it the same way I do.

'Sharing' skills

ok I shall try to keep this short and sweet.

I had mission training today and boy was it the best talk I ever went for. I shall not ramble on it cos then it won't be short and sweet. haha.

So ya. I learn a few skills, tricks and all which I think is super super cool. I shall try it on people.

And the mean sec ones kept laughing at me, when I was trying to 'share'. Ok. At least now they are talking to me. (In case you're wondering. My goal is to talk to everyone. And not be this snobbish girl who keeps to one group of friends.. blah blah blah.)

AND THE GAME IN SUNDAY SCHOOL WAS SO FUN. EXCEPT FOR THE... (well I shall not say.)

Ok. now back to studying. hahaha

To go back in time

You've no idea what I'll do to be able to go back in time.

To be able to ring those precious bells once again. (ESPECIALLY THIS)
To be able to play piano with a purpose.
To be able to plan worship.
To be able to work with younger children.
To be able to use the phone as and when I like.
To be able to bake.
Basically, just to be able to do the things that I love.

Prelims is killing me... Why is it taking so long to be over with???

You've guessed it, now back to studying....

Prelims

Sigh. Prelims start tomorrow! and hence I most probably won't be updating for a long time. So don't ask me why my blog is dead. And my exams are as such:

1. 13th Aug - A maths 1 and Chem 2 (sigh, two heavy papers)
2. 14th Aug - A maths 2
3. 15th Aug - Geog 2 (another heavy paper)
4. 16th Aug - No papers
5. 17th Aug - English 1,2 and o level oral (oh great, english galore)
6. 20th Aug - Maths 1
7. 21st Aug - Maths 2
8. 22nd Aug - Physics 2
9. 23rd Aug - Social Studies
10. 24th Aug - Chinese (this is only if I decide to take chinese again. Which I hope not.)
11. 27th Aug - Lit elect
12. 28th Aug - Geog 1
13. 29th Aug - Chem 1 and Physics 1 (I seriously can't wait for this date)

On top of this, I'm going to recieve my Chinese O levels results tomorrow and I'll be recieving my results for my piano exam anytime soon, most probably tomorrow as well.

My heart is too weak!

But I shall remain positive. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. haha. I must persevere. I must do well. I can do well. (I just need to give myself a motivational talk if not...)

Prayers are very much appreciated. For both my exams and that I'll stop getting so frustrated with.. well I just don't want to say it. Sigh.

Lord please give me the strength...

short hair

me with long hair in japan

my cousin and I. still having long hair

LOOKIE!! ME WITH SHORT HAIR!

it's short short short!

yeah, comment people. which one do I look better in, short or long hair. I must take note, so I know whether I should keep my hair long or not.


ok, I know i'm supposed to upload founder's day photos. but photobucket takes soooooo long.. sorry 4i. I'll do it when I've more time