Spring is coming

If I'm not wrong, today is the last day of winter. HOORAY! I think Spring is such a lovely season, when flowers all start to bloom. (Ok this is just the perception I have, who knows how true it is) And sadly it means that all the birds will be around and flies. Oh well.

Time really just flew. It's already going to be September in a few hours. 8 months gone and now I'm starting on the 9th. Trial exam in 2 weeks. Stress!

And for some reason, I find it not easy to stay focus on anything. That is bad.

Ok, enough procrastination. Study time

BS

"A commitment to planned obsolescence may produce inferior automobiles, but it makes for great servant leaders."

Two BS in two days and both made me think a lot. Like really rack my brain trying to figure things out. And through it all, there was this hunger in me, to find out the answer. I never wanted so badly to know what everything really meant.

And on top of that, it was a good time of reflection.

I guess that was what I needed.

:)

Happy birthday Pam

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAM!
Hope you had a wonderful birthday despite all the packing you have to do :)
And I must say, you're getting really old

this must be the first time I actually remember your birthday on the day itself. haha.

Lala

I'm in a rather chatty mood now and there's no one online. So yes. I shall share the things on my mind.

Methods is killing me. I should have paid attention while Mrs Soutiriou was teaching chapter 15. I really don't like this topic. Oh well. The graphics calculator is just too complex. Haha. Ok I'm just trying to find a way to procrastinate. Truth is that I was doing fine, until I realised that I could blog to waste a bit of time.

Tomorrow and Thursday I'm going to have worship prac and then I'm playing on both Friday and Saturday, and I'm SO EXCITED!!!!! After 8 months! I've even cut my nails so that you won't hear it when I play. Yay.

And then CELL RETREAT!! I love my cell. I really really really do. And I saw the options for accommodation. Both places look so so nice. Oh I'm so excited! And there's LTC retreat as well. Ohh this is going to be such a fun holiday!! I'm so excited! (How many times have I said that?)

Ok I've procrastinated long enough. Back to methods. I'm going to do every single question! Yes I shall!!

Shepherd of my soul

Shepherd of my soul
I give You full control
Wherever You may lead
I will follow
I have made the choice
To listen for Your voice
Wherever You may lead
I will go

Be it in the quiet pasture
Or by a gentle stream
The shepherd of my soul
Is by my side
Should I face a mighty mountain
Or a valley dark and deep
The shepherd of my soul
Will be my guide

Shepherd of my soul
Oh You have made me whole
When'er I hear You call
How my hearts flow
How I feel Your love
Oh how I want to serve
I gladly give my heart
To You Lord

Be it in the flowing river
Or in a quiet night
The shepherd of my soul
Is by my side
Should I face the stormy weather
Or the dangers of this world
The shepherd of my soul
Will be my guide

Let this be my prayer

Please pray

Please please pray for me. I'm seriously terrified now.

Just a few nights ago, when I was on my bed, about to sleep, my light bulb flew out and missed by head by a bit before falling on the ground. I didn't think much about it and just put it back the next day.

And just this afternoon, I was at my com and then there was this smashing sound behind me. (btw my seat is at the other side of the room from my bed) and like when I turned around, I saw the light bulb on the floor, missing me a bit by just that bit again. This time round it broke

I seriously don't think it happened by chance. And it's really really scaring me. I'm really freaked out now.

Yes there is a chance that I'm thinking too much about it. But still.

I know that with God by my side, nothing can harm me. And I trust that He'll look after me. But I'm still a bit scared. Like. What's happening?

Please pray for me. I'll really appreciate it

Time of rest

I'm finally done with my really hectic week. Well sorta. I still have work to catch up on and stuff, but at least I don't have anymore appointments/arrangements.

I am so tired!

So now is my well deserved rest and I wouldn't mind crawling back into bed, but the chances that I will wake up after an hour or two is like really low. I think I'll be able to sleep till the next day and it's only 1.40pm now. That's how tired I am. But no! I am going to complete my agenda for the day.. once I figured out what it is. Haha.

And I can smell food which is making me really hungry but I've to wait for a while more for Mush to finish bathing. I'm so tempted to just nap while waiting but I know I won't wake up. Oh the conflict!

Anyway, I just came from LTC and I managed to 'gain' something from it, so that was good. Made my waking up early worth while. Haha. Now I've something to ponder upon. How interesting.

Alright, the computer screen is making me more sleepy than I already am, so that's all folks!

Now to just quieten my heart and reflect on my week. Thank God for a day of rest! I so need this

Lord I yearn to see Your face

Bad English

Weijin gave me the link to this. It can be disturbing but it's really funny as well. And it makes me miss Singapore so much more



See Mush, I'm telling you, pronunciation is very important.

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I miss you.

PORKKKK

I don't have anything to blog on actually, but I just don't want to study and this is one of my only escapes since I don't want to paint my nails or eat.

So this is just going to be a really random post. Ok maybe I do want to start work, just that my brain ain't really thinking now, so I shall type until I'm more alert.

Ohhh!!!!! Yesterday, Joey, Ben, Mush and I were at Victoria Market and like Joey wanted to buy pig liver and chicken kidneys. So there were kidneys and she wanted to confirm if it was from pork. So I helped her ask the lady at the counter. And the conversation was really strange.

Me: What is this?
Lady: Pork.
Me: Which part.
Lady: Kidney.
There was a short moment of silence as I nodded my head in acknowledgment.. then...
Lady: Pork pork pork pork pork pork pork pork....

Then we quickly moved away.

At first we found it really funny but then after a while, I felt like it was some human sized chicken. Just pork-ing away. Woahh. Freaky lady much.

Ok I've wasted enough time. I shall stop blogging.

From one of my greatest advisors

My dad may never see this, or if he is that kaypoh, he will. But the thing is, I may never tell him this straight in the face, but I think he gives really great advice. I went to the fmcteens blog and there were certain things that just meant quite a bit

First was this letter thingy and a really really small testimonial like thingy. For people who really know me, or rather I think they should know this, but anyhow, one thing I really want in life, is to get married to the most loving husband and have children of my own. I want to go through pregnancy and what not. (there's a reason why I say this, but you've to ask me fo

During the past 3 months, some teens and youths have been sharing that they would like to have a boy/girl friend or would like to get married soon.

They claimed that one of their friends is already married at a very young age so why can't they?

Thot I share a letter given to me many years ago.

"Dear child,

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone to have a deep relationship with another: to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But I say, "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with living, loved by Me along, and with giving yourself totally, unreservedly to Me. I love you my child and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect love, the perfect human relationship that I have planned for the most thrilling plan existing, one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You must keep watching Me and expect the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction knowing that I am preparing the One for you. Keep learning and listening to the things that I tell you.

Do not be anxious. Do not worry. Do not look around at the things others have received from Me. Do not look at things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away, up to Me, or you will miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I will be working to have both of you ready at the same time. Unitl you are satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you will not be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and this the Perfect Love.

And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love. I want you to see a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection, and love that I offer you with and through Me.

Know that I love you utterly.

Love,
God Almighty;

believe and be satisfied."

Only when I was close to 30, did God give me a great wife. I am now close to 50, with also 3 great children.

"No good things will the Lord withhold from those
who love Him."

Dun Rush!

Ya. And the other is a video. I guess I've been struggling quite a bit to keep that fire in me, to want to know Jesus more, alive? And this video, I know wasn't meant like for only me, but like, when my dad put it there, it just made me realise and remember the God that I serve. And to avoid this from getting too long, I will just show the video and let you gain from it, in your own ways :)

I'll stand

I wanted to do more than what I'm going to type now. But, this is just going to be a sweet short summary.

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

NDP '08 ruined

I painted my nails red and white
I dressed up in red and white
I wore slippers red and white
I prepared scarves red and white

Only for my NDP to be ruined! One of my favourite holidays, a joke to everyone else, ruined. Guess you all can laugh at me now. Me wanting to watch the National Day Parade was me being serious, but it was just treated as a joke. Ya, now you can laugh at me. I thought it would have been so much fun. Well, it was fun when I could still sit there, silently awaiting ____. It never came. Then everything was just blegh.

And on top of that, I really want your blessings. Because I don't think I can rebel that much.

How to make studying easier

Psych is such a fun fun fun subject to study! Wheee

Let me tell you all something really interesting, and it can most probably help you for your exams and tests.

You know how we always claim we have STM and our memory is really bad. Firstly, you can't really phrase it like that but I'm not going to go into that. So anyway, that's nonsense. The only reason why we are unable to remember everything we study is because the information has not gone into our Long Term Memory (LTM) - which you don't need to know about. So basically, for us to remember things relatively permanently, it has to be stored in our LTM. So the thing is this, the information that we get into our brains first go through the Sensory Memory (SM) then to Short Term Memory (STM), where we work on the info and then to the LTM, for storage. But the thing is, you have to add meaning to the info for it to be stored in the LTM. So right, if you were to do rote learning, chances that you remember a lot is very little. But if you made the info meaningful to you, it will be stored in your LTM and studying will not be so much of a chore. Jinli please correct me if I'm wrong. Haha. No one else can ok. Because I don't think anyone else who reads my blog studied this.

How interesting was that. Haha. If only I knew about this long time ago. I'm sure I would have found studying more interesting and it would have definitely been more fun studying. Well, at least I get to learn it now. Psych is really so so fun!

Ok off to memorise memory! Haha. I love saying that

My family

Kudos to Ziteng for editing the photo

10 fun facts about phone conversations with my family

1. My brothers like to ask me what I'm doing and what did I have for all my meals
2. And they'll ask me that throughout the WHOLE conversation
3. Ian likes to pretend he's everyone in the family (by 'changing' his voice) So you can imagine how long it takes him to pass the phone to someone else
4. My mum talks to me more of the 'how are you' side
5. My dad deals with more of the logistic stuff (yes he'll still ask how are you)
6. My brothers love asking me to buy stuff for them
7. Brendan is only worried about how cold it is here (He's not concerned, he's jealous)
8. 'Joey' seems to be able to speak in human language now, thanks to my brothers
9. Tv seems more important than me
10. They only ask me what I'm doing but never tell me what THEY are doing. HMPH!

But those are the little things that make me love them more and more :)

Mid term VCE results

I got my results back already and I must admit, I was rather disappointed at first. But then I remembered that it was really by the grace of God that I got through it. Besides my results aren't THAT bad. In fact, it's rather, ok or good. However you want to see it. Yeah

So as for now, I'm really happy with my results. As I'm typing these, I'm contemplating if I should type down my results.

Oh, I might as well. Since I'm rejoicing over it, you all can rejoice with me too.

I've A for Psychology and a B for Accounting.

They are not perfect but it could have been worst eh? So yeah, I'll just study harder and yeah, it's really by the grace of God that I got these results. So yeah, all glory and honour goes to Him :)

Thank You so much Lord for carrying me through

Casino Royale

Ok updates!

We didn't have lessons on Friday but we had the university preference thingy. Reality hit me hard in the face at that moment. I'm going to uni next year and whatever I do this year, is going to add up to the final exam - which is more or less the deciding factor of my future. I never thought this day would come so soon. It kinda scares me. I'm actually growing up! And what's really not nice is that just to discuss anything with my parents is not as convenient anymore. I really took for grated the fact that they were always there last year. I enjoy my freedom now, but at times, I really want my parents here with me. As much as I dislike their nagging, I know that they give good words of advice. Anyway, I'm digressing. I need to start studying really hard for everything. No more 3-4 days-in-a-row-slacking.

On a lighter note...

The formal was rather fun I have to say. The performance went relatively well. At least I got to relive my performing days and the nervousness I always experience before the show and how I will always end up so calm during it. It's kinda weird actually, that I go through that emotional rollarcoaster despite having done this so many times before. But anyhow, I don't have like a million photos, but I've quite a few. Haha. Yeahh

And then we went to Club Benjamin. It was kind of a last minute thing for Jinli, Aiwee and myself. We just decided we wanted to go for an adventure! The night was young and we had to make full use of our day night. And to achieve that, I sneaked out of the hostel. That was seriously thrilling. After a whole night of fun, I fell asleep for a while, before sneaking back into the hostel and had a proper sleep. Well, nap if you come to think about it. But anyhow, that was really fun. Especially the sneaking in and out. All the adrenaline rush and the anxiousness of what to say if I'm caught. Haha. I spent that whole night talking gibberish with Jinli and Aiwee. And we built a castle. Haha. I want the picture of that castle!!

Anyway, enough words. I shall let the pictures do the talking.




Anyway I don't know why the video is unable to load, so you won't be able to see our performance. And I'm too lazy to upload the rest of the photos. It's too many to do so. Haha. So just click here and you can see them. Or if you know my flickr account, it's there. I recommend you view it in a slide show. Haha. I also don't know why.

Oh and Vanessa, once you compiled everything, I want them too!!!

Catch a glimspe of the beauty

I saw the prettiest rainbow yesterday. It was huge and it stretched across the cold sunset sky. It was such a splendid sight and this photo is seriously doing injustice to the beauty of it.

It's amazing isn't it? Everything around is so carefully planned, so creatively constructed.

Then we zoom into ourselves. We are an AWESOME creation.

God is seriously amazing. When I stood there in awe of that rainbow, I was just reminded of the beauty of everything. I am now reminded of God's plan, of how His plan is just not easy for us to fantom. But still, I want to try. I want to relight that fire in my heart and have that passion once again to know more about Him.

And so my prayer for the night:

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of Your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthrone above

I stand, I stand in awe of You
I stand, I stand in awe of You
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of You