You Are My All In All

Uni life has so far been much easier than I anticipated. I was just reflecting upon it yesterday and I found it amazing how I haven't told my parents, 'I give up.' The work load has been crazy compared to high school and yet, I'm really excited to keep on going, even though I know assignments are going to be due in the next month, and the following month is exams.

I guess this really is a testimony to how I'm not doing this alone, and that God has provided me with the strength to just carry on, to persevere through. Then I started to think about my walk with God and I realised that I've learned so much just from the past year and that everything I went through was not for nothing. I started to see more of God's purpose in my life. It's really amazing.

And then this song came to mind. Every single word is so so so true.

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up I'll be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your Name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your Name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising again I bless Your Name
You are my all in all
When I fall down, You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Swine Flu

So, seriously, how do you differentiate swine flu from 'normal' flu?

Judge Judy

Recently, I have been watching a lot of Judge Judy. It's a really interesting show but I guess Judge Judy can be quite mean at times. Then again, maybe that's how all judges are, or maybe she has to be this way because of the show. Ok but that's not my point.

As I watched the different episodes, I started to feel sad that people are having these kinds of problems. Like ex girl/boyfriends and family, etc. But anyway, my main focus is on family.

I guess most of us can say that we come from a loving family. Ok sorry, maybe most people that I know come from a wholesome family and stuff. And I don't know, but I really cannot picture ever having such nasty arguments with my brothers that it ends up in court. Or like we end up being physical and stuff. Can you imagine, now the relationships between those family members are like ruined. It's one thing to sue your ex girl/boyfriend. But your family? Especially since blood is thicker than water. Like how are things ever going to get better again?

But ya. It's really sad to see families fighting so badly that it has to be brought to court. I wonder if they even tried settling it outside court. Hmm. Oh well.

So I guess I'm quite grateful to come from a family, that even though we may have our 'conflicts', it's never blown out of proportion. And that we would somehow get over it and stuff. I really wonder if any of them are like Christians. Hmm.

Random

I love my timetable. How I start off Monday with a timetable that is not too heavy, Tuesday is like crazy and then Wednesday is not that heavy as well. And somehow, every Wednesday, I feel as if the weekend is here, even though I have like one hour on Thursdays. Like from 5-6pm and the best thing is that, since it's a lecture, I can always choose not to go. But I have been going ok!

But I don't like how every single Wednesday, I'll be too tired to do anything. I keep telling myself I'm going to stay up to talk to friends from Singapore, but at the rate I'm going, I'm most probably going to fall asleep soon.

Ok that was me just being random.

On another note. There are so many thoughts running through my mind right now. But it just seems like noise. It's like so so noisy in my mind and I don't think any one of those thoughts are even important. Just random, noise.

Oasis

I actually really love going to uni, not because like I'm a nerd but I really enjoy what I study, no matter how tough it is.

Today during criminology lecture, we were watching the show 'Oasis'. Basically the idea was to understand why homeless youths would commit crime by looking at the examples and stuff. And basically, there's this organisation, which I think is a branch of Salvation army, in Sydney, which tries to help these homeless youths.

I started watching, thinking that the youths were really scary. And that I couldn't imagine what it would be like dealing with them. But as it progressed, I think I gained something much different from others. Besides the theories and all that blah blah, the video made me see how blessed I am. To have a family that really cares about it, to not be kicked out of the house, to not have to turn to stealing just to survive, etc. In a way, I have a really wholesome environment. Plus all the more in Singapore, you don't really see this kind of things. In a way, we are all rather protected.

And then, my heart really started going out to all of them. Firstly, I felt so happy that there were people actually trying to make a difference. They could have devoted their lives to do something else, but they lived their calling, which is really amazing. Their jobs are really not easy. Like the decisions they have to make, knowing when to call the police and stuff. Like they have so much love in them, to know when is the right time to discipline, the right time to pamper and stuff.

And then, I started to feel so sorry for the youths, especially those that were forced under their given circumstances. Tears kept rolling down my cheeks and the whole video gave me like tons and tons of opportunity to just pray. Because these are real life stories, people who really need a difference made in their lives. Youths that have so much potential and a whole life ahead of them. Youths that are about my age, maybe slightly older. And then I felt so frustrated just sitting there, watching all these. I really wanted to just stand up, get out and do something for them.

Then I see how this all ties up with what I feel my calling in life is. I start to understand more and more what God has called me to do. And yeah, such videos just keeps that passion in me alive. Sometimes I really wish I can just stop studying and just go out and do something. But I guess what I'm studying can actually help. Yeah.

And I guess I can start small, like within campus.

It's overr..

Mid sem break is officially over. I.am.upset. Haha. It has to be one of my best breaks ever. Play, play and more play. Hahaha.

Oh well. Now back to mugging.

This has been a short, waste-of-time post. haha.

Diagnosis before prescription

This makes my friends and I laugh every time we read it. It's taken from my health science readings. But as funny as it is, it does teach a very important lesson of how you shouldn't never diagnose before you prescribe.

Suppose you've been having trouble with your eyes and you decide to go to an optometrist for help. after briefly listening to your complaint, he takes off his glasses and hands them to you.

"Put these on," he says. "I've worn this pair of glasses for ten years now and they've really helped me. I have an extra pair at home; you can wear these."

So you put them on, but it only makes the problem worse.

"This is terrible!" you exclaim. "I can't see a thing!"

"Well, what's wrong?" he asks. "They work great for me. Try harder."

"I am trying," you insist. "Everything is a blur."

"Well, what's the matter with you? Think positively."

"Okay. I positively can't see a thing."

"Boy, are you ungrateful!" he chides. "And after all I've done to help you!"

Hahaha

Mushroom is super funny. hahaha. Look at this convo

A.R. 2 :: iz it sleepy tiem nao? says:
i paint my nails green!

•๋● monica says:
hahahaha

A.R. 2 :: iz it sleepy tiem nao? says:
so that way, i can hold my thumb up in front of those old fogey gardeners and said that, "BIG DEAL, I HAVE A GREEN THUMB TOO"

•๋● monica says:
OMG
•๋● monica says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

4 words

"Drop everything. Go. Do."

Gone

To the world who most probably don't know where I'll be.

I'll be gone for easter camp, later today till Monday. So ya. Till then.

Haha. I'm honestly just typing this so that I'll start to wake up.

First hurdle

I am finally officially done with my criminology and sociology essays. I just have to finish training some virtual rat, which would apparently take about an hour and then I'll be done. And then MID SEM BREAK! Hooray!!! But the sad thing is that, because of the assignments and stuff, I've started to lag behind in my readings. Which isn't good. And sigh, I've been up to date all the way until this week. I haven't done a single reading. I have so much to catch up on.

I'm really thankful to God for sustaining me and not letting me give up. Writing essays is not really easy. I have no idea how people do it again and again and again. And soon I've to start on my other essays. Haha. It never ends!!!

And Shuks just said something while we were standing by the keyboard that really cracked me up.

S: Is this G?
M: No, it's C. This is G.
S: Is there a G sus
M: Ya. This is how you play it. (shows her)
S: Oh cool. Gsus is like GE-sus (Jesus)
M:HAHAHA

The way she said it was really funny. And I just realised something cool about my name. The M could have been to represent Monica or Me. haha. Cool name of mine. Ok that was random.

And now off to bed. There's still class tomorrow. They should have not have any lectures for sociology, like how they did for my crim and one part of psych. Then it would have been a super slack week, well except for the fact that I had to make sure my essays were done. Haha.

Goodnight

Trust and Obey

To a dear friend,

This was something I learned in sermon, and something was nudging me to share with you.

Trust and obey,
For there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus,
But to trust and obey.

The road may seem hard, but rest assured that as you learn to trust in Him, your life would be transformed. All you need to do is to believe, and you will be saved. And as you obey, your life would be blessed abundantly.

Don't go looking for some complicated solution, because the simplest one is presented before you right now: 'Trust and obey, for there's no other way. To be happy in Jesus. But to trust and obey.'

And rest assured that if you need someone to confide in, you can always talk to me.

Love always :)

End of Day Light Savings

So in 40 mins time, it's going to be the end of day light savings, and I'll experience 2 - 3am all over again. haha. The thought of it is actually quite cool. Haha. And the exciting thing is that, I'll be only 2 hours ahead of Singapore then. Yen claims that I sound as if this is my first year in Melb. (Yes Yen, if you're reading this, I just mentioned YOU! haha) But it's not true ok. It's exciting because now it's going to be easier to talk to people back home.

Yup. And next weekend is easter weekend. I'm so excited for camp and stuff. I'm going to teach my group Gloria's lame game. haha. And it's only going to be fun because I'm the only one who actually knows it. haha. And then my group can be the one with a new game, instead of like sticking to the same old games. haha. Yay!

Ok, that's all I have. haha. Goodnight

Another reason to give thanks

Walked home alone again today. Somehow tonight felt more creepy than the other times I walked back, but this I felt this peace, this confidence that nothing bad would happen to me. Like the overwhelming force surrounding me, protecting me.

Silly me didn't plan the route properly and ended up walking in front of K Box. The guys there were drunk, I think. But somehow, my mind anticipated all their moves, and even though guy after guy tried to scare me, it didn't work.

Ultimately, I'm home, safe and sound. So ya. Another reason to thank God.

The Beauty of Life

Life is a very beautiful thing if you actually take the time to appreciate it.

Today I started thinking again about how life would be if I was the one who created this earth - very boring and very ugly. Like every single detail of the things surrounding us, and then the complexity of our body, of our mind. Our earth is nothing in size, compared to the whole universe. Can you imagine if you were the one to have to design all this? Even if we just zoom in on the planet Earth. Everything was created in 6 days. 6 days to do all these. Wow. I don't know if I'm making sense, but yeah; life is really beautiful.

I can't imagine life without You
Without You
Cause it's all for You
Yeah it's all for You God

And I was once again blessed with the opportunity to just look out of the window, and admire the sunset. (I don't actually face it, but even the little bit I get to see is so pretty) I was able to see different types of clouds, not too much, not too little. And the tiny details of the trees as I pass them, with the leaves slowly changing in colour.

Simple pleasures that can really make my day:)

April Fool's Day

I realised how my April Fool's Days have evolved over the years.

When I was old enough to understand that April Fool's Day (AFD - since I'm going to type it a lot); it was a day, to me, whereby we could play silly tricks or say silly stuff and laugh it off with AFD!! Brendan and I would say stuff like 'eh there's a cockroach there' and laugh 'APRIL FOOL'S DAY' when our sporty parents would turn around, searching for the cockroach.

Then as I got older, we started doing weird stuff in class. Like trying to prank our teachers. Haha. Those fun silly days.

And now, AFD is just another day. Like ok, my childish side came up with thousand and one things to do, but then, the thrill is no longer there? Haha. I don't want to be like doing some ultra mean prank and the others just seem too silly. So yeah

There's my brief explanation of how AFD has changed over the years.