heart of worship

I played keyboard in crosslink today.

I don't know how I fared and all, but I don't really care. But ultimately, it was kinda fun playing in crosslink. The music is somewhat different. I like certain styles they use. And definately much louder. It was blasting la. And I jumped everytime Ryan played something ultra loudly. Still like the music in crosslink. Maybe my expectations are just very high when it comes to music. That's why there are certain things in intermediate worship that I don't really like. But at least people have the heart to worship. That's ultimately what it is all about. Oh well. I learnt new songs today. But I think I just kinda forgot them. Haha. I forgot the title of that nice nice song. Oh well. I'll find out another time. Yeah. I was so so scared that I couldn't learn it. Sometimes I don't understand myself. I perform so often, but everytime before the actual thing and all, I'll start to panick. But the minute everything starts, I forgot my nervousness. So weird.

Tomorrow we're having house visitation. Dunno if I'm excited or not. Should I bring stuff to play so that we all can play? Or should I just go there and see what is there for us to play?

Oh well. This post is so boring. And I'm just blogging cos I'm super bored. I need to organise something. I feel so sian not planning for anything.

true love

She wept. Her mind was just filled with thoughts of him. She could not get him out of her mind. He was just so perfect to her. Her heart ached as she pictured him spending time with another girl on Valentines’ Day.

She was not about to let herself be depressed. She was going to let her feelings be made known. She took her purse and stood along the side of the busy road. She looked up and down, hoping that some taxi would come in sight. But none came. What was she going to do? She did not want to go home and allow her mind to be filled with thoughts that would upset her.

A dark cloud passed across the evening sky, hiding the setting sun. The taxi came soon after and she instinctively held up her hand, and the car stopped.

“Orchard Road, uncle,” she said softly. She knew that she would be able to see him there.

The taxi ride took shorter than expected. She was not ready to face him. She knew she could not hide forever. She knew she had to let her feelings be made known. He had always been a hero in her heart. She stood next to a quiet alley, next to the building where he worked.

Confused with what to do, she started pacing up and down. The noise of a group of people shouting reached her ear. She spun around quickly only to see a group of gangsters surrounding a familiar silhouette. It was him.

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“You want to live? Pay us now or we’ll beat you to death,” the gangsters shouted fiercely at him. He shook his head with terror in his eyes. He had no money. With no where to run, he knew that the only thing he could do was to face death. He backed into a corner and crouched. He was trembling with fear.

The leader of the gang took something short and black out of his bag. It looked like an iron tool. Would the gangster attack him with that?

“Stop!” she heard herself screaming as the gangster raised the tool high into the air. Her heart beat so fast that she could barely breathe. She was too late, the gangster started hitting him. The others started kicking and punching him. He started shouting for help but they gagged him. Another tied him up so that he could not get away.

She saw blood trickling down his face. He was badly injured and all she was doing was just standing there, watching everything. His cries of help slowly started to die off. She knew that he was too weak to fight back, too weak to do anything.

She could not just stand around looking at her one true love get beaten up. She knew she did not have the strength or money to stop them. All she had in her mind was that she could not let him suffer anymore. Without thinking any further, she ran and threw herself over him. She took the beatings for him. She had no other ways to show her love for him except for suffering for him.

The gangsters continued hitting her with all their might. After they were satisfied that she was badly injured, they left. She just laid there bleeding. She had done all she could to save him. With the last ounce of strength she had in her, she lifted herself up to check that he was all right and then she fell down, unable to open her eyes…

Yeah, I've another blog by the way. So if you want to know the URL just let me know. I dunno if I should actually let the whole world know about it or what. Yeah.

can you solve this

ok I know someone asked me this before. But I forgot who.

You borrow $50 from boyA and $50 from boyB, you have $100.

You buy a TV which costs $97 and you are left with $3.

You give $1 back to boyA and $1 back to boyB and you have a $1 left.

But you still owe boyA and boyB $49 dollars each,49 x 2=$98.

But you only have a dollar left. So where did the $1 dollar go?

Interesting eh?

Anyway. Will someone email me the answer. Cos I'm annoyed that I can't get it.

those were the days

Yeah I was just going through my pictures. And this is what I found. hahaha. Almost all of them look so so much different now. Some of them look so so cute!! hahaha. Shall not say who. Later I'll get a big fat beating from all of them. These are in no particular order.

Gerald and Elroi look so so young and innocent. So not like what they are now. HAHA. Elroi looks forced to smile.

Cher, Pho, Kui Luan And Mag. KL looks as if someone is pulling her hair real hard.

Believe it or not. This is Daniel!!


AHHH the girl in this pink roxy t shirt is actually VAL! Compare her now and then!

Those were the days when girls show a liking for centre parting. HAHA.



My classmates look rather cute don't they.

I still have many more pictures. See if I've the mood to continue blogging about such stuff. As for now, I wonder how long this post will take to actually be up.

I don't really like the new blogger.

Thinking outside the box

I find this quite an interesting post. Kinda Meaningful.

You are driving down the road in your car on a wild, stormy night, when you pass by a bus stop and you see three people waiting for the bus:

1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die.

2. An old friend who once saved your life.

3. The perfect partner you have been dreaming about.

Which one would you choose to offer a ride to, knowing that there could only be one passenger in your car?

Think before you continue reading. This is a moral/ethical dilemma that was once actually used as part of a job application.

You could pick up the old lady, because she is going to die, thus, you should save her first. Or you could take the old friend because he once saved your life and this would be the perfect chance to pay him back. However, you may never be able to find your perfect mate again.

The candidate who was hired (out of 200 applicants) had no trouble coming up with his answer. He simply answered: "I would give the car keys to my old friend and let him take the lady to the hospital. I would stay behind, and wait for the bus with the partner of my dreams."

1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. "Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others." Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him. "How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it. "Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient. "Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins. "I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, was one quarter, two dimes and five pennies. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson . - The obstacle in Our Path.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of theking's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way. Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand! Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away". Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

"Work like you don't need the money, sing like no one is listening, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching."

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that takes our breath away"

"The risk takers might not live long, but the cautious never live at all"

We care for you

This post is directed to a particular person. Please don't try to guess who it is. Because none of you will ever be able to guess who. Yeah.

And don't you dare start rumours on anyone based on this post, even though you may think that you're very correct. *Hint Hint Lim Ziteng. haha.

Dear You,

Why do you let yourself get so upset? Do you not know that there are a lot of people who care about you, who cannot bear to see the sight of you suffering. Let it go. Let all your worries and sadness go. Cast all your burderns to God. He'll will guide you. He loves you so much that He would never let you suffer.

If you ever decide to leave, even though it may not concern me, I will never forgive myself. There is no way I'll let you leave especially after knowing you for so long. I'm not ready to lose a friend now. I really hope that you will find another solution. Just don't leave all of us. I can honestly tell you that if you leave, I'll definately miss you.

You have already made such a huge impression in all our lives. Trust me, you've definately given us very very good impressions. And we cannot just let you go like that.

Yes I know that you may think that leaving is the best way out. I know you've been thinking for us all these while and you want to make this decision for yourself. But if that is the case, then I can make this selfish request that you stay.

We cannot afford to lose such a good friend like you. I cannot afford to lose a friend like you. I'm sure if you let us, me, know the problem(s), that help and other solutions will come your way.

Don't give up hope. It has been said that time heals all wounds. So be patient alright?

And ultimately I hope you make a decision that you won't regret.

MTAG (More Than A Game)

Sorry, it's already over. It happened today. haha. If you had wanted to come but because I didn't tell you about it, you can come and haunt me and I'll definately invite you for the next fun fun fun activity.

Basically it's a activity organised to get a few people together to compete, playing some football game for a grand price of $500 cash voucher to buy more computer games. haha.

To cut things short, I was down there since 8 and then I felt that I was kinda useless. But had fun nevertheless. I finally learnt how to play the x box game. Even though Gerald seemed to be quite annoyed with the way I played. Just because when I get the ball I just kick it, without dribbling. But it's not my fault ok. It's like my first time. And dumb dumb Gerald said that I won't score anything. BUT! I actually managed to score 2 goals! HOW COOL IS THAT?!!

Ok and this is the first time that I actually talked to certain people that I never did before. I realised that you need to just throw me into a place with people that I don't really talk to, give me nothing better to do, and I actually will go around talking to them. I feel so proud of myself. And because of today, I actually changed my opinion on many of them. Yeah. I keep my stand, I think going to youth is so so exciting. But I shall not start on this, cos things will start to get very ugly.

Overall it was quite a meaningful day la. Even though I didn't do much. Hahah. And like my brothers were playing with these non christians after the whole thing. I hope by just through playing like that, that those boys would come back to church. Yeah.

something meaningful

Yeah, Miss Kon shared something that will really make you think. Well, at least it got me thinking and reflecting. I kinda liked what she shared.

So I'm going to share it with you...(this is kinda edited cos I can't really remember word for word)

There were these two boys. One day they were eating grapes and the grapes were full of seeds. So the first boy said,"Why must there be so many seeds in this?" And basically he just couldn't stop complaining. The second boy then brought the first boy to the garden. He then said,"Look at those beautiful roses. Even though there are thorns on the branches, they are still so beautiful."

There was this other time when the two boys went for a run. After the run, both of them sat down and starting drinking. Not long after, the first boy said frustratedly, "Look! I bottle now is only half filled." The second boy replied,"Oh, lucky me, my bottle is half empty"

This story really makes you think doesn't it. How you can look at things in two different ways, positive and negative. You can always look at things negatively and never be happy. So even though there are times when you do make a bit of mistakes, and things seem to be so so so bad. You can just try to find a positive light of it, and not feel that depressed.

Ya, so as I heard this during devotions today, I asked myself, how have I been looking at things. Have I always looked at things in the positive light, or have I always demoralised myself? And then I asked myself, how could I get those around me to think positive thoughts?

Well basically, I don't really have the answer yet. I know it's kinda anti-climate to say that but that's the truth. Yeah.

reflection

Have you ever have those times, when you just do, say or think something. Then after you reflect back, you realised that you are wrong? And then you just feel so bad.

So today there was this meeting that I had to attend and yeah there were a few stuff that I was not so happy about. Many stuff that I felt injustice for. Things that were said made me feel unappreciated. So yeah, I complained about it and all. I just couldn't stop going on and on and on about it. So yeah, I was told by a friend that "... As long as God gets the honour" That didn't really work. It calmed me down a bit though. I told my parents about the whole thing. I was still bearing that grudge. When my dad finally told me "..... ultimately God knows what's the truth." It just hit me. That hey. I may be doing what I did for 3 years. No one may care. Everyone may want to have a part of it. But ultimately, it's for God. That all this while, I missed the important point of this whole service. I was actually doing it for God and not for men to see. But yet, today my pride took over. And then I felt so bad. That I took what I did as a 'performance' which I wanted an arousing applause from everyone. OH Lord, please forgive me for thinking like this. I know I shouldn't have thought this way and all. Please help me remember that whatever I do, it's for you and not for men to see.

And yeah. Delicia. I have confidence in you, that you will be able to take over this whole project. Even though now it seems kinda unreasonable and weird. I'm sure things will work out. Yeah. If there's ever a time when you cannot cope, just let me know. I'll help you as much as I can. The only reason why I asked you and no one else to take over me is because I feel that you're the only one suitable for the job. Because you are responsible and matured enough. Yeah. And I know for sure that you'll do me proud all the way.

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Yeah. Now to another topic. You know since young, almost everyone would be asked this question. And that question is "What do you want to be when you grow up?'

For many years, I never had something that I actually dreamt of doing. There was this stage I wanted to be a teacher. Then I was so keen into becoming a lawyer. The next one was that I wanted to become a film director. Then something to do with computers.

But now, after going for two mission trips. I want to go out to the mission field when I grow up. Actually, I want to go out to the mission field as much as I can. I want to be able to go and be with the less fortunate. To touch their lives and just to bring smiles onto their faces. The trip to Cebu made me realise that there was this part of me, that I never knew of, that was filled only after the trip. When I felt so accomplished that I could actually make a difference to other people's lives.

BUT...

well, many people have been telling me that I should at least work for a while before I actually do such stuff, because the working life may teach me more stuff. And through working I would have enough capital. And yet, there's nothing else that I actually want to do. I want to do something that reaches out to others, to help others. To make a difference in other people lives.

Hopefully as the days go by I'll see my true calling. To where God wants me to go. Whether He wants me to do something else or do actually go out to the mission fields asap. I hope that day comes soon. Cos I really want to know what God's purpose for me is...

SYF assignments

Ok, I really want to thank Tiffany and Priscilla.

Thank You Two so so much for letting me play EF6 for "Shiny Steps". Like I know how much everyone, well almost everyone, would like to play the trebles. And to think that you two actually gave up the offer so that Rui Jun and I could have the notes. So yeah. Thank you two loads and loads.. It's seriously very hard to find friends like the two of you.

Yay! I'm finally on the road to recovery. My nose is not exactly cleared and my throat is not exactly not hurting. But yeah. I feel much better than before. I'm not exactly in the pink of health. But I'm not that dead looking as before. Haha. I was like a zombie on friday so my mum had no choice but to give me medicine which would make me drowsy. Oh gosh. I can't believe the things I did. You know who you are. Please don't tell anyone what I did. It makes me sound like a retard but I'm not one ok.

Handbells has been getting better and better la. Practise does really make perfect. I hope that we can settle our SYF songs soon. So that we can actually just focus on them and all. I don't want to end up having tons and tons of prac when it's closer to exams just because we can't settle on the songs.. Like I know it's not easy and all. But hopefully, Mrs Aw can just do something soon..

OHOH! And I can go out tmr and can play for crosslink this month. You know how happy I am. Cos like I'm not allowed to go out that much. And just to be able to go out is really so so exciting. To think simple things like this make me so happy. Seriously people, if you can go out a lot, you should not take it for granted. If not you'll end up like me.

Ok, till next time...