this is so unfair!!! so so unfair! i want to go somewhere and scream!! scream my lungs out!

how can my parents just make me quit from methodist school of music and force me to learn from my neighbour... shouldn't i at least have a say.. shouldn't they ask if i want to quit. i'm the one learning piano.. not them.. and even so.. must it be a neighbour. so know how people gossip.. and i use to learn piano in leisure.. now i'm going to be so pressurised to learn.. ya. i know you may ask. grade 8 right? can learn in leisure meh? apparently yes. jessica leong use to teach me in a very fun way. now cannot take my time to learn. and the thing is. i really want to continue learning. but i JUST DON'T WANT TO LEARN FROM MY NEIGHBOUR! and i feel that i should have the right to choose. or at least be consulted for this decision.. it's really not fair to me la. shouldn't my mum just ask me if i want to learn from her.. i rather drop piano altogether if i have to learn from her. i used to play the piano and enjoy every single moment.. now.. i know i'm going to find it a dread. it's so not fair.. and the thing is. she said that if i don't 'qualify' this monday. she's not going to sign me up for the exam. so what? everything i learn goes down the drain? hello????? where got such rubbish!

somehow. everything seems to link. especially when it's bad. mummy's always blackmailing me. so is my dad. and now my mum is forcing me to learn from her friend. i don't know if my dad even cares. and ya. i know for sure i cannot go crosslink. yes. what am i going to do?

everything seems to be going wrong for me.. i know everything that happens is part of God's plan. but ya. i really want to know what is His plan.. cos ya. i know God would bless me. God will take care of me. but i really want to have my cake and eat it too. i want to learn piano from someone i prefer.. i want to go crosslink. and i want God's blessings. oh well.. ya. i guess i should really trust his heart shouldn't i?

Trust His Heart
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can't see how they would
Troubles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see Him
Remember you're never alone

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust his heart

He sees the master plan
He holds the future in His hand
Don't liveas those who have no hope
All our hop is found in Him
We see the present clearly
He sees the first and last
And like a tapestry
He's weaving you and me
To someday to be just like Him