today's car wash was fun. ya. i used the hose from home. ya. and it was so fun. cos i could adjust the pressure by the hose. yup. don't really want to talk about it. nothing much to say about it.

ya. it started at 7.30 and ended about 11.30-12. not sure actually. ya. but you can guess how tired we all were. then we went to long john's sliver. ya. jessica, sarah, cheryl, mag, cherilyn, gerald, delicia, ziteng, pho, ryan and i. ya. then later. jessica, cheryl, pho, ziteng, ryan and i had to rush back to church for sunday school sunday practise. ya. and i heard that mag, cherilyn and gerald went to watch a movie. not fair la. ya.. and i didn't get to do anything productive at ps. stupid. i want to go back on thurs. if not next sun.. ya. and i want to watch tv.

ya. and the practise went ok la. i still don't understand what they mean to play fast for the jesus my certainty intro. cos i just held the chord. really don't understand them man. shall ask them again next practise. cos i really don't mind playing fast. ya. i can practise. ya oh well.

tmr have chinese oral. feeling nervous. dunno what to expect. ya haiz.

oh my gosh. i just realise how dependant i am on my handphone. which is bad. i was already warned many times that this is what satan wants and yet i still use my phone every day as if it was part of my life. my phone just got confiscated last night and now without it by my side. i feel so weird. so sian. and that's not how i want to be. oh no. what am i going to do.

oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no. i need to think think think.

ahh.. this is so stupid. the start on a weekend that i was looking forward to. and my phone has to be confiscated!! what rubbish is this. stupid mummy. confiscate for what..

oh and you know why my phone was confiscated. ok. ya. it was my fault la. but you can't blame me right. on friday and i'm only allowed to use the phone for an hour? IT'S THE WEEKENDS!! and besides.. my next common test is after the one week break. so why can't i talk more??!!?? not say i'm disturbing anyone right? haiz. my parents are too strict la. who on earth has such unreasonable curfews. on school nights i understand la. but on friday?? and when there are no test coming up. this is so unfair. i better get my phone back by today. if not. tmr. i dunno how on earth am i going to tell sarah what time to get out of her house and all

haiz. ya. tmr. i shall go ps after car wash to confirm the prices. hmm. dunno how am i going to propose all these. hmmmmm.. ya. i need to plan everything properly if i want it to come through. ya.. oh. and i also need to get a thumbdrive for the department. so that i can pass over all my responsibilties to the sec 1.. and their job will be easier. ya.

and i really really really want to play for syf. i know i've been going over this over and over again. but ya. if cannot get enough people to join the performing team when i'm in sec 4. and we don't get like about. 8 more people. we cannot join syf. but i want to play and be proud of myself when we get like some really high award. haiz.

ya today had handbells. started at 0220 instead of the usual 0230. and rui jun said that sandra wanted to give some kind of speech. so we rushed just to hear it. but in the end it was nothing. sandra didn't even say anything. ya. today i was walking around before mrs aw came. so i stood behind tracy. ya. was telling her the mistakes she was making. cos i think if she plays well she can definately make it to the performing team. ya. and for performing team, practise went by real fast. ya. surprising i don't feel drained anymore. not like last time. when i first started out in the pg, ya. always get so exhausted. good. then at least i know now i'm getting use to it. haha.

today i was thinking that i can actually contribute to the intermediate department by the skills i aquired in project work.. i've decided that i want to raise funds. for a new drum pedal, a crash, an amplifier and another mic. ya. according to cheryl the pedal and crash cost about $200. ya i think altogether. i'll need about $450-$500? not sure la. but i really want to get these stuff la. the pedal is the first thing i want to get. followed by the crash then the mic and lastly the amplifier. ya. so i shall aim low first. ya. i definately want the pedal by this year. yupp. i thought of selling breakfast at church like as many times as possible. ya. which means i can do what my mum does. get the food from uncle soon boon. then sell. ya. and then also can get a few of us to like bake or whatsoever then sell those. ya. i don't think i can get the whole department involved. cos a lot of them like don't care want. and i can only get sec 2 and sec 1 involved. cos the sec 3 will be leaving. and i think they won't want to do it. and the only sec 1 i can think that may help is delicia. ya. plus the mg and acsb sec 2. ya. that's like the enthu group in sec 2 la. haiz. shall go talk to them about it. see what they say. but i'm really determined to raise the funds. ya.

hmmm. hope that i'll be able to get permission to sell and all. ya. shall go to discuss it now. ya.

pw is making me so so bored. ahhhhhhhh.. i finally did finish the powerpoint. and now all i need to do is to add in pictures and do the animation. ya. and that's boring me out. i never knew how boring that is. will someone please help me. ok. i shall get pho to help me. since she likes doing these kind of stuff.

ya. tmr got handbells. can't wait.. haha. dunno why. maybe cos i just love handbells. ya. but i don't think i'll be sitting in the beginning group tmr cos i'm going with rui jun to kap to do home ec. ya.

and to tracy. i know you want to get into the performing group and i'm sure you can. if you practise sight reading since that's what you claim you're weak in. ya. you play the piano right? ya. or used to. ya. one way to help you with your timing is to play music instruments. well. that worked for me. ya. piano is helping me with my timing and sight reading. practise harder k. then i'm sure you can make it in. cos i think you got the potential

and yes rui jun.. i won't tell anyone else about you wanting to be you-know-what k. don't worry la. i won't tease you anymore. and ya. you said that who won't want to be right. i guess that. ya la. it'll be quite fun being you-know-what. having all that authorithy and all. but i still think you'll be it la. cos you've been with the performing group longer.

oh and i really really cannot wait for sunday. ya. CAR WASH!!!!!!! you all may think i'm crazy. to enjoy these kind of stuff. but you can never understand the way i'm feeling unless you come down to foochow methodist church and help out in the car wash. and ya. i got the hose. but i'm not the only one. gerald got the hose too. but still. i got the hose. ya. and possessing the hose is quite fun. ya. if anyone wants to help out in the car wash or want to come down to church on saturday(youth service-- crosslink) or sunday (this sunday car wash.. normal stuff on other weeks). let me know. if you have my number call or sms. if not tag me and let me know. ya

shall go and continue the powerpoint now.

i've got the hose.... i've got the hose... i've got the hose....
haha. dunno why i just can't stop chanting that. ya. i'm just very very excited.

oh. dunno why. but i feel spiritually challenged. really don't know why. pray for me k. i feel that i'm being tested because in my previous post i said that i want to do more QT. hopefully this is nothing serious.

and tmr. CCA!!! yay! haha. i really love handbells. and ya. going to learn more stuff from rui jun. and yes. suppose to help the beginning grp. hmmm.. not sure what rui jun wants me to do. so shall go early to find out. ya. ok.

i shall end my post here. one of my shortest post. :D

ok. i hereby declare that i shall do Quiet time everyday. i shall never say that i'm busy cos busy means Bound Under Satan's Yoke(according to mummy who heard this fromt the pastor today)ya. so. now. i shall always find time to do Quiet time. yes.

ya. today i brought my keyboard to church today. ya. everyone who touched it got amused by it. ya. because my keyboard can 'talk'. haha. it has this DJ function was allows it so say a few words. like 1,2,3, ok.. good, very good, excellent. ya. and so on. and everyone got so amused by it. hopefully i can use this keyboard to expose more sec 1 keyboardist. cos once my level leaves intermediate. the sec 1 will only have 2 guitarist unless they expose themselves now. ya. hopefully all these will work. ya

oh and i'm super excited for next sunday. cos we're having car wash again to raise funds for intermediate's cultural exchange trip. ya. even though we already had this before. i am like very excited because this time i'll be in charge of the hose. ya. the other time when we had car wash. joel and elroi were in charge of the hose. and they were like. so annoying with the hose la. and refused to lend it to anyone. until they were tired. ya. then i managed to play with the hose for a while before they demanded it back. so when they got tired again. ya. i think it's going to be very fun.

The Professor and the Christian

"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ."
The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand. "You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"
"Yes, sir."
"So you believe in God?"
"Absolutely."
"Is God good?"
"Sure! God's good."
"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"
"Yes."
"Are you good or evil?"
"The Bible says I'm evil."
The professor grins knowingly. "Ahh! THE BIBLE!" He considers for a moment. "Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help them? Would you try?"
"Yes sir, I would."
"So you're good...!"
"I wouldn't say that."
"Why not say that? You would help a sick and maimed person if you could.... in fact most of us would if we could...God doesn't."
[No answer.]
"He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"
[No answer]
The elderly man is sympathetic. "No, you can't, can you?" He takes a sipofwater from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax. In philosophy, you have to go easy with the new ones. "Let's start again, youngfella."
"Is God good?"
"Er... Yes."
"Is Satan good?"
"No."
"Where does Satan come from?"
The student falters. "From... God..."
"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he?" The elderly man runs his bony fingers through his thinning hair and turns to the smirking, student audience. "I think we're going to have a lot of fun this semester, ladiesand gentlemen." He turns back to the Christian. "Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?"
"Yes, sir."
"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? Did God make everything?"
"Yes."
"Who created evil?"
[No answer]
"Is there sickness in this world? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All the terrible things - do they exist in this world?"
The student squirms on his feet. "Yes."
"Who created them?"
[No answer]
The professor suddenly shouts at his student. "WHO CREATED THEM? TELL ME, PLEASE! "The professor closes in for the kill and climbs into the Christian's face. In a still small voice: "God created all evil, didn't He, son?"
[No answer]
The student tries to hold the steady, experienced gaze and fails. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace the front of the classroom like an aging panther. The class is mesmerized.
"Tell me," he continues, "how is it that this God is good if He created all evil throughout all time?" The professor swishes his arms around to encompass the wickedness of the world. "All the hatred, the brutality, all the pain, all the torture, all the death and ugliness and all the suffering created by this good God is all over the world, isn't it, young man?"
[No answer]
"Don't you see it all over the place? Huh?"
Pause.
"Don't you?" The professor leans into the student's face again and whispers, "Is God good?"
[No answer]
"Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?"
The student's voice betrays him and cracks. "Yes, professor. I do."
>The old man shakes his head sadly. "Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you seen your Jesus?"
"No, sir. I've never seen Him."
"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"
"No, sir. I have not."
"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus... in fact, do you have any sensory perception of your God whatsoever?"
[No answer]
"Answer me, please."
"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."
"You're AFRAID... you haven't?"
"No, sir."
"Yet you still believe in him?"
"...yes..."
"That takes FAITH!" The professor smiles sagely at the underling. "According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son? Where is your God now?"
[The student doesn't answer]
"Sit down, please." The Christian sits...Defeated.
Another Christian raises his hand. "Professor, may I address the class?"
The professor turns and smiles. "Ah, another Christian in the vanguard! Come, come, young man. Speak some proper wisdom to the gathering."
The Christian looks around the room. "Some interesting points you are making, sir. Now I've got a question for you. Is there such thing as heat?"
"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."
"Is there such a thing as cold?" "Yes, son, there's cold too."
"No, sir, there isn't."
The professor's grin freezes. The room suddenly goes very still. The second Christian continues. "You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold, otherwise we would be able to go colder than 458 - You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."
Silence. A pin drops somewhere in the classroom.
"Is there such a thing as darkness, professor?"
"That's a dumb question, son. What is night if it isn't darkness? What are you getting at...?"
"So you say there is such a thing as darkness?"
"Yes..."
"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something, it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, Darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker and give me a jar of it. Can you...give me a jar of darker darkness, professor?"
Despite himself, the professor smiles at the young effrontery before him. This will indeed be a good semester. "Would you mind telling us what your point is, young man?"
"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with and so your conclusion must be in error...."
The professor goes toxic. "Flawed...? How dare you...!"
"Sir, may I explain what I mean?"
The class is all ears. "Explain... oh, explain..." The professor makes an admirable effort to regain control. Suddenly he is affability itself. He waves his hand to silence the class, for the student to continue.
"You are working on the premise of duality," the Christian explains. "That for example there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science cannot even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism but has never seen, much less fully understood them. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, merely the absence of it." The young man holds up a newspaper he takes from the desk of a neighbor who has been reading it. "Here is one of the most disgusting tabloids this country hosts, professor. Is there such a thing as immorality?"
"Of course there is, now look..."
"Wrong again, sir. You see, immorality is merely the absence of morality. Is there such thing as injustice? No. Injustice is the absence of justice. Is there such a thing as evil?" The Christian pauses. "Isn't evil the absence of good?" The professor's face has turned an alarming color. He is so angry he is temporarily speechless. The Christian continues. "If there is evil in the world, professor, and we all agree there is, then God, if He exists, must be accomplishing a work through the agency of evil. What is that work, God is accomplishing? The Bible tells us it is to see if each one of us will, of our own free will, choose good over evil."
The professor bridles. "As a philosophical scientist, I don't vie this matter as having anything to do with any choice; as a realist, I absolutely do not recognize the concept of God or any other theological factor as being part of the world equation because God is not observable."
"I would have thought that the absence of God's moral code in this world is probably one of the most observable phenomena going," the Christian replies. "Newspapers make billions of dollars reporting it every week! Tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?"
"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do."
"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?" The professor makes a sucking sound with his teeth and gives his student a silent, stony stare. "Professor. Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a priest?"
"I'll overlook your impudence in the light of our philosophical discussion. Now, have you quite finished?" the professor hisses.
"So you don't accept God's moral code to do what is righteous?"
"I believe in what is - that's science!"
"Ahh! SCIENCE!" the student's face splits into a grin. "Sir, you rightly state that science is the study of observed phenomena. Science too is a premise which is flawed..."
"SCIENCE IS FLAWED..?" the professor splutters.
The class is in uproar.
The Christian remains standing until the commotion has subsided. "To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, may I give you an example of what I mean?" The professor wisely keeps silent. The Christian looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?"
The class breaks out in laughter. The Christian points towards his elderly, crumbling tutor. "Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain... felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain?"
No one appears to have done so. The Christian shakes his head sadly. "It appears no one here has had any sensory perception of the professor's brain whatsoever. Well, according to the rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science, I DECLARE that the professor has no brain."
The class is in chaos.
The Christian sits... Because that is what a chair is for..

ya. i'm in quite a good mood today. ya. and the reason can be described in one word.. HANDBELLS!

yes. i really enjoyed myself in handbells today. dunno why actually. usually i get real real tired after handbells. but today. i'm like. HAPPY!!! ya. i didn't want to play for beginning group today. felt like doing my maths. then was talking and laughing and talking and laughing with those who were not playing. ya. like rui jun and all la. ya. am i glad i'm given the choice whether i want to play or not. full promotion is really good man. i can really use it to my advantage. ya. then at 4 was the performing group's turn to play. then just before that. gwen went to tell mrs aw that she won't be able to play anymore. cos she's going NJC.. so ya. she cannot play for performing grp anymore. so now. handbells has a choir of 12 people. which is too little for SYF la. so practically. when the current sec 3 leave. we die. cos i think there's about 6 sec 3.. then if they leave. 8 more people will need to join the performing group. and ya. i think mrs aw's kinda irritated by the beginning group. she has like very high expectations of them. and they are kinda not reaching that target. anyway.. that was a bit off track. that's not why i'm happy. well. actually part of the reason is because of gwen. ya. cos she left. mrs aw transferred me to a higher set of bells. A5 and B5.. i feel so trusted. haha. from B3.. i got pushed up cos cynthia had to leave. to E4 and F4.. then because gwen left. i got A5 and B5. haha. so now i'm playing those notes for Burong Kakak Tua.. that weird weird song. ya. but it's quite fun. but ya. now i just got to get use to it.

now more about my day. handbells right. other than being fun. i realise a lot of other stuff. i realise that lynette can be quite annoying. i know she wants to play the higher notes. but erm. if she's placed in the base. shouldn't she just accept it and like. play better. so that hopefully mrs aw will give her better notes. but she complains a lot lor. ya. then she never play properly. and ya. i realise that. she thinks that she's real pro. ya. i actually support what rui jun says. lynette can really be quite annoying. ya

and now about 2s. OH MY GOSH!!! i really cannot stand them at times. what are they thinking of? always making a lot of noise. can't they just SHUT UP! stop making so much noise with their guitars too. there's really a time and place for everything. and lessons is definately not a time to play the guitar. haiz. i know i complained about it before. but ya. i really cannot take it anymore. and for goodness sake. will someone please get the class a clock. so that sonia will stop asking what time it is. ask ask ask. i'm like so frustrated with them la. GOSH!!

i want to put a password on this blog. but then. it's like. if i do so. then not many would be able to visit my blog. haiz. i'm still debating with myself if i should put on that password. ya.

and yes. i got to agree with rui jun. there's really a biased person in handbells. it's a person no one will ever guess. or so i think. but oh well. if i don't say. rui jun don't say. and whoever she tells don't say. i don't think it'll ever get out. ya. haha. and playing bass in handbells get really give one 'depression'.. a painful depression. haiz. so now. officially, all bass players in handbells can be suffering from 'depression'.. ya.

and i still got church to worry about. i still dunno who to give my job to. it's like. what i do can kill someone. cos they need to organise who to lead, who the musicians are.. and they need to do powerpoint or assign someone to do powerpoint. and sometimes they need to help find chords. but most importantly, they need to organise a worship roster. haiz. but like that is already very stressful. have to call song leaders and blah blah blah. haiz. very very stressful. i wanted to give to a fellow musician. but i don't know lor. cos it's like. who on earth will want to do. so i think i need to like break up the work load. and everyone take turn to do. and i need to be much much stricter. ya. from now on. i shall make the song leaders do their own powerpoint. and i think that i need to buy a thumbdrive for sunday school.. i'll put in my master powerpoint in it and some chords. so make their life a bit easier. ya. haiz. dunno why i worry so much about it. maybe i should just believe that God will really make a way. ya.

i think for these few days. i've been really short fused. and in girl talk. people will just say i'm having pms. but trust me. i don't have pms now. haha. but ya. sometimes i feel that 2S is a bit too much la. not everyone. but some of those sitting behind. nowadays sonia and vanessa bring their guitars to school. and it's so annoying. if they want to play. they should not play during lessons lor. and all the more during a common test! so inconsiderate. everyone trying to answer questions and there is the 2 of them. playing. k. not exactly playing. but ya. making noises with the guitar. what's their problem??!!! and a lot of them makes a lot of noise during lessons. a little bit ok la. but they ask the same questions non stop. saying they don't understand... and why?!! because they don't' pay attention and make a lot of noise. i can really sympathise with Mrs Ong. they are so annoying. sometimes i feel like screaming in their faces. and selene. gosh. she just won't stop touching my stuff. she sits in front of me. and always lean back just to make a mess on my table. do you know how annoying that is. and now. most of my pens won't work. because of ms selene bay. she just has to touch this. touch that. GOSH!!!!!

ya. i feel so much better getting these stuff off my chest. ya. now i think i better put that password so that no one will read this. haha. ya. now off to do heymath

i finally changed my blogskin. yupp. ya. i really really love candles. and i think these candles are really really cute. haha. ya. took a long time to get everything running properly. now my only problem is that i can't right click on it. so ya. if anyone can help. let me know k.

ya. church today was ok la. i didn't have to do anything for worship. which is like quite good la. don't have to stress myself. and today is like the second time i went to buy breakfast. first time with delicia, gerald and cherilyn. today i went with jessica. ya. then we went to buy carrot cake sticks. ya. they were really nice. the old woman at the stall was so weird. she just didn't want to sell to us the batch she already had. she made us wait for a long time before finally selling to us. what a queer. ya. today's worship didn't go too well.. elroi just refused to sing into the mic. he just concentrated on playing the guitar. stubborn. and the twins played too loud. but oh well. i can't change anything now can i? so ya. it was requested that the same songs get sung again next week. so that everyone would be more familiar with these songs. and dont have to depend on the song leader to sing. ya. aunty shirley talked about worship after that. she talked about how jesus washed his disciples' feet. and ya. i guess i should not complain when serving. even jesus washed 12 people's feet. and i'm like not washing anyone's feet(thank god). so ya. i shouldn't complain. i should be cheerful when doing it. and not treat it like a chore. ya. and ya. i felt so so happy. when aunty mui ing came up to me and thanked me again. for doing this planning worship every week. haha. but sometimes i feel that i don't deserve such thanks cos i complain a lot when stuff don't go well. or when the song leader and i cannot communicate. ya. but ya. guess i just have to learn to change.

now i have a huge problem. and that is tmr's chapel. how on earth am i going to solve such a problem... the song leaders dunno some songs. and vanessa only told me this yesterday. and she's like. not home. and won't be until at night. and hello? now then you ask me to help. a bit too late lor. what am i suppose to do. i can't change songs. cos guitarist not happy. i can't get pho. cos they don't really want her. can't get rachel cos they also don't really like her. can't change song leaders. cos too last minute. so WHAT ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSE TO DO??!!! this is suppose to be vanessa's job. why she last minute tell me. i hate it you know. when people last minute tell me this kind of stuff. she had like the whole week to tell me that. but NO.. she just didn't. and i only have a few hours to decide everything. haiz. cherilyn is trying to persuade me to teach them the songs. haiz. but 15 minutes where got enough time? i think i'll just do like. a few worship plans. one the original. one is the songs that bev knows how to sing. and so on. haiz. this is so stressful. but as the song goes 'God will make a way. where there seems to be no way'

and since i'm at that song. i just realised. that i'm short of musicians for next year. haiz. this is really really stressing me out.

i think i'm just going to sing that song until i calm down..

God will make a way

Where there seems to be no way

He works in ways we cannot see

He will make a way for me

He will be my guide

Hold me closely to His side

With love and strength for each new day

He will make a way

He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness

He'll lead me

And rivers in desert will I see

Heaven and earth will fade

But His Word will still remain

He will do something new today

haiz.. dunno what's wrong with my blog. i need to go do something about it.. yupp.

today had handbells. ya. it was quite fun. except the part that i really cannot play for begginers group anymore. no extra notes for me to play. so sad. seeing them clap the rhythm for the melody was really really funny. ya. really wanted to laugh.. and mrs aw looks really funny when she wants to laugh. hahaha. ya. performing group was ok la. how i wish that i get more exciting notes.. ya. i'm stuck playing E4 and F4. haiz. ya. and i can't believe rui jun treats me as competition. haha. cos we like dunno who is the vice. or rather. who would be pres next next year. ya. and i think it'll be rui jun la. cos she like was the first sec 2 in performing group. but ya. she treats me as competition. which i should take as a compliment. ya. haha

and i'm so so nervous for monday's chapel. cannot believe that i'm actually going to play keyboard lor. ahhhhhhhhhh. i'm so scared i make a mistake. i cannot afford to make a mistake. ahhh. shall practise more before chapel itself. ya.

tee's leaving tmr. even though i'm like not so close to her. but i'm sure she not around will cause everything to be different. it's like. everyone's going overseas to study. ya. and like now. i can remember when i was in the same room with tee in music camp. it was actually very fun. and i was actually looking forward to more events like that. but guess now i would have to wait for a long long time. haiz. then everhappy girl is actually leaving singapore for australia. well. at least we all will know that she's still a joyful person wherever she goes. dunno if i'll miss her badly. ya. think i'll be going to the airport will my father tmr. if he goes. ya. to send her off.

today's ruth's birthday and her last day in school.. i'm going to miss her. it's like. i was so so happy when i found out someone else in class was actually in the same cca as me. but now. she's leaving for england on the 1st sep. so sad. 2 girls left class liao. from 32 in a class. we now have 30. haiz. we didn't get to stick together throughout the whole year. this is so sad.

ok miss rui jun. i'll shall post something. er.. let me see. what can i post about

ok. tmr's national day. yay? not much difference to me actually. cos i have to spend it with my neighbours. how fun is that going to be? it's going to be real real stupid. who on earth wants to spend like 2 whole days with your noisy neighbours in some pretigious hotel. not me. i rather stay at home. then i'll just do stuff to entertain myself. but staying with my irritating pest like neighbours is definately not how i want to spend national day.

ok. to make this post longer. i'll shall talk about handbells. cos i think that's what rui jun wants to read right? haha? about the performing grp thing. ya ok

erm. ya. according to rui jun, mrs aw wants to 'kick','demote' (however you want to put it) some people. ya. and before the other sec 2 came for performing grp handbells. i heard mrs aw told the 2 cynthias that cos the performance is in november. they cannot play anymore. that part i don't understand. why because the performance is in november can't the 2 foreign exchange students stay in the team? it's so weird.. i think they must have felt so hurt. so sad. i think that means there's two more empty spaces in the performing grp. i know rui jun wants jeanie to get in the grp. wonder who the 2 people will be. hopefully more sec 2. actually. kinda have no choice. cos like there's only 2 more sec 1. and ya. they may not make it. so i think it'll be 2 sec 2. so ya. ok.. that's about all i have for school i think. ya.

now about church. hmmmm. ya. i tried making some kind of duty roster for sunday school to make my life easier. then cos eliza can play all the instruments. i accidently clashed her. haha. i made her play drums and keyboard on the same day. actually. this kind of things very the ma fun. dunno what people in church want to do. then must do the roster in a way that they all happy. haiz. so ma fun. but other than that ya. ok la. nowadays i don't get as stressed. ya. quite used to it already. and now i like plan in advance. so most of the time. i just have to worry about preparing chords for certain musicians and the powerpoint. yupp. need to call that guy who wanted to play drums.. what's his name?? oh ya. calvin. haiz. i think sooner or later everyone's going to be annoyed with me for non stop reminding them that they have to be in church by 8.30 for worship practises. haha. very soon calvin will be too. haha. ya