i don't know why. i cannot explain why. i can't even understand why. but the usually happy me is.... depressed. and i mean it. i'm really really upset. but i don't even know why. i just feel sadness overcoming me. as if i've no more happiness left in me. and this is so not me. i can't even force myself to smile. what's happening to me? what's going on?

i seriously need help. seriously. i want a shoulder to cry on. a friend to rely on. someone i can pour out everything to. but somehow i just dunno if i can ever find one. i have like plenty of friends. good friends. but yet. something is missing.

and at this point. i don't even know what i'm thinking. why is this happening to me?