Could I be the one?

In every clique, there is usually someone who either gets kicked out or leaves. Could I be the one?

In every group, there needs to be someone to head it. Could I be the one?

In every class, there needs to be a class president. Could I be the one?

In every religion, there is a need for people to share the gospel. Could I be the one?

Well, I was thinking. Yes, I am very lucky to be a class president. Very blessed indeed. Something I get without even asking. Something many would want and no matter how hard they try never get. I am very lucky to be one of the few who was selected to go for the Leadership Training Camp(LTC). Yes I am very blessed. So why do I not feel myself this blessed all these while? Why do I always think that I'm being deprived.

I have such great friends. However now I feel as if I'm drifting apart. I'm not right? This is where I belong. There's no other clique I want to be in. Why am I feeling all these?

Is it because I'm different? Is it because I'm changing? Why are all these happening? Who can answer all these questions for me?

Maybe God is putting me through this for a reason He does not want me to know. But how will I know for sure? Maybe God wants me to share the Word with more unbelievers. Am I up to it? Is my heart ready to stand for God? Ready to do whatever God sends me to do?

Well, I guess all I can do now is to wait. Wait for an answer.