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And just ONE more to go.

One more!! One more!! I'm seriously losing steam right now. Just no more stamina to continue studying. But I know I really have to. It doesn't help that so many people ended already. Btw, I saw Dom today and I got a lift from him to the city. Yay, and thanks Dom. haha

So far, my exams have been ok. I really don't know how else to comment on it. Uni exams are really somewhat interesting. I don't have to rush for time. I'm taking my own sweet time to do the papers. And goodness me, I even end up day dreaming and stoning in the middle of the exam. And seat numbers do not go in a 'snake' formation, so it will take me even longer to find my seats.

And all I need to do is just mug for a really short time more, and it'll be over. Sem 1 over. But I can find so many thousand excuses in the world to not study now. And now, the debate is, should I go for coffee min tonight or not.

Lee

Picture taken in 2007

They are flying back to Singapore later and will be in the airport during my exam (which means I can't send them off),

AND I'M ALREADY MISSING THEM LIKE CRAZY!

If We Are The Body

Okok I promise I'll continue studying after this. This issue is really bugging me, but I am not going to blog it for various reasons. Like I said in my previous post, some things are not meant for certain eyes to see. But anyhow, the song 'If We Are The Body' by Casting Crown really really illustrates the situation quite well.

It really pains me that things are at this point right now. It really does. It pains me even more that I cannot find anyone over there who is sharing the same heartbeat.

If We Are The Body
It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

Chorus (2x)
If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way

I'm too lazy to put the song up as well, go to youtube and listen to it or something, or ask me to send you the song. But yeah. I really pray for guidance and wisdom as I take the next step into this. And if you really want to know what I'm talking about, you kinda have to ask me, because I really won't blog about it in detail.

Romans 12:2

Today I took this step. A step that was kinda awkward but yet I felt fuzzy inside after doing it. Perhaps this is the beginning of more to come. And the thought of that makes me really glad. I'm really happy how everything is turning out, how things that have happened once before is helping me grow (hopefully into a better person)

Talking to D yesterday really helped me clear my head a lot. To see what I really want to do, what I really have to do. I realised how I rather be set apart and do things that are right, then to follow the norm and have my conscience bugging me. That step today really proved that to me.

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."

Romans 12:2

There are just so many things that I want to do right now regarding this. But I think I need to slow down right now, and get my priorities right. Finish exams first then continue with my major planning. Don't think I'll be blogging about the 'plans' but I guess you can ask me. Certain stuff are not meant for every single eye to see. Haha.

Another reason

Was supposed to be studying, but my heart felt disturbed at certain issues, and I managed to talk about it. I was reassured at my thoughts, well sorta. (don't mind more though, to really confirm) And through this whole thing, God revealed to me another reason for Him sending me here.

Now I've something else I want to fight for, something else I want to make/see a difference.

Romans 5:1-5

¹Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, ²through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. ³Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Romans 5:1-5

I thought I wanted to add on something, but I guess I don't have anything at the moment. These verses were shared by Bonnie and they really spoke to me. So ya, thought I'll just share them with those who read this blog. Anyway, 3 more papers to go, and then I'll be officially done with year 1 sem 1. Time really flies man. Can't wait for the holidays though.

Exams

Ok so tomorrow I officially start my exams. Just when everyone is doing their last few papers, I begin. Great..

I'm honestly freaking out right now. Like I don't really feel confident, but I think maybe it's just pre exam jitters. And since I'll need this to be able to do year 2 psychology subjects, it's making me even more nervous. And I'm so nervous that I'm typing super fast right now. haha. Not say anyone can tell lah.

Yeah. So really praying that God will give me good grades. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. That I'll do well and that I'll be able to wake up tomorrow and be on time. Then again, it's more than just on time. I'm like so kiasu. I want to be there early. Haha. Oh! And that I don't fall sick. Especially with so many people in one enclosed room, there'll be so much GERMS!!

Ok back to revising. STRESSSSSS

Love

You know how it is when a person is around someone they love?
Their face lights up. They have a sparkle in their eyes and a
radiant glow to their smile. And if that love is returned,
their entire soul is illuminated. Love always lights up our lives.
God's love does that for us.

Stormie Omartian

Kids say the darnest thing

Ian is the cutest thing ever.

He called me, because when I called just now, he was at his friend's house. And he started asking me how I am and stuff. SO ADORABLE!!! I think my number is programmed in the phone for this kind of purposes.

But this 12-year-old-to-be dares to ask me for a credit card, so that I can give him money to go shopping. -.- since when were sisters the atms? I thought that was the job of a parent?

Oh well. I actually cannot wait to see my family! So exciting!!